I cannot help thinking abt a lot of things when I was mugging recently, maybe tt is why my mugging sections are not very effective.
Dun noe y, a lot of little things can make me think a lot!
Mum was telling a news she read recently. A girl from XX university commit suicide because she realise tt life is meaningless. Mum was saying tt this was so absurd, how come all the young ppl have this kind of mentality.
I did not say anything, but inside me, there are a lot of voices. Was studying Existentialism in chinese lit recently, I was highly convinced by the ideology. It is true in some sense tt life is meaningless cos there will not have any form of evidence of our existence after we died.
Life is full of estrangment, cos no one can really understand us as they are not us. Life is also full of nothingness and anxiety, and tt is the feeling when estrangment come into our life. In conclusion, life is full of absurdity. Every existing thing is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness and dies by chance.
These theories are logical and they make sense, but tt does not mean we can just give up our lives. Yes our existence is meaningless cos ultimately we will become ash and diappeared in the world. However, living is not just abt ourselves, it is more of a form of responsibility to the ppl we love and the ppl love us. Tt is y i dun believe tt living for ourselves can make us enjoy life more. When we were young, we study hard in order to persue our own dreams. When we grow up, we work hard cos tt is sth we find meaningful or interesting. But have we ever think abt wad gives us the motivation? It is not our dreams or the works, it is the responsibility inside ourselves tt motivate us and enable us to survive any difficult situations. We study hard, cos we dun want to upset our parents and we work hard, cos we want to give the next generation the best. They are the ppl we love and love us, so it is a kind of responsibility to continue living for them.
These philosophical thinkings are recondite, but wad confuse me most is religious staff. The Existentialism thinks tt there isn't any almighty powers in this world, but i deeply believe tt there is sth higher than human. I am not really a free thinker but I dun really have a religion. I know the ideology of more than 2 religions as a form of knowledge and sometimes just cannot help believing in them, so there are more than 2 religion ideologies inside my mind and I keep thinking abt them. There are definitely similarities of them and there are also differences, and tt is time I am confused. I am not thinking abt which one is correct which one is wrong, but I am thinking why there are such differences.
Tt are just some random thoughts of mine. I noe I should not think too much at this pt of time, but sometimes my mind is just out of control. Maybe we dun need an absolute answer for everything so there is no need to think too much bah~~~~~~
Study hard and pls CONCENTRATE!!!!