Was really low this morning, I nv cry for my result, today is not an exception, but I almost lah, it is really depressing, demoralizing and disappointing to get this kind of result after putting in effort. I am not expecting a great jump of my grade, but I do expect to see some improvement, sadly, reality did not show me tt.
The tears came out of my eyes quite a lot of times when I was sitting in the classroom, but I rubbed it away or just simply looked up. Actually, I want to cry, i want to admit tt i am not talented in this subject, I want to break my record of not crying over wadever lousy results and I want to tell myself tt I do care abt my grade. Somehow, I managed to suck the rears back, and tried to laugh with the class without knowing wad they are laughing. Maybe, I was just trying to keep tt little bit of self respect infront of myself!!! Stupid me!!!
This gave me a bad mood for the whole day, I was like a walking corpse without a soul, rushing from one lesson to another. Neglacted all the happy staffs happening around me......
Had my tkd trainning at abt 5pm, it was really an good way to vent my anger, I won't regret of joining tkd lah, I just keep kicking, punching and shouting, felt a lot better after tt~~~
Then at night, was the Lumos Concert. The bands were dame imba lah, they seriously rocked my night, I am super high now. When my heart beat with the drum beat, it was really joyful. Music can cure wadever wound of mine, but sometimes it can also cut open my scars~~~
Wadever lah, just had supper with my super cuteeee juniors in KAP, they are seriously funny and they are all nice pplzzzz!!! haha!!! 72 rocks!!! <3333 Looking forward to JTS/STJ which takes forever to come~~~ LOL!!!
Btw, I am going for my tkd grading this sun morning to get my yellow tip!!! Wohoo!!! Shall practice at home tml!!! hahahaha!!! XDDD