I am calm now, so I am going to write things tt I have experienced abt life......
Sometimes, life can be expected, but we, the tiny individuals can do nothing to upturn the situation~~~
Mum called me just now, she told me tt my great grandmother passed away this morning. I was calm when I hear abt it and continued to ask my mum abt the funeral affairs. Hung up the phone, there was 1 min of blank for me. I thought I should be strong enough to face this kind of thing as it is not the first time alr, but, actually I am not. There is nothing I can do except praying, it is then my tears start dropping out, only at this moment I can really cry like a child without hiding anything~~~
Actually, my great grandma was hospitalized around 10 days ago, the doctors said tt there was no way tt they could save her. My family was alr mentally prepared by then, but there was really no thing we could do to make her feel better, except watching her lying on the bed, she could not talk, could not feel, could not even eat anything~~~
It was a kind of suffering to see ur loved ones being tortured by Death in their last momment of life......
Another person who played a part in my childhood left me, it is sad but the beautiful memories tt my great grandma gave me is still here with me and those were the things tt make me cry when I think abt her, who is now up there watching over me......
I shall write down these in memory of my great grandma;
Great grandma had a bad hearing since I was young, so everytime when I need to greet her, I had to come very close to her, talked in a whispering pose but with a shouting volume.
May be because I am the youngest child in the family, great grandma was always biased towords me. She made my cousin to check my hwk for me and always asked him to teach me the questions tt I did not know how to do. And there would always be nicely peeled freash fruit or hand-peeled nuts such as walnuts, peanuts, sun flower seeds etc on my table when I was doing my hwk. Basically I just need to use a spoon to transport wadever there on the plate directly into my mouth......
But now, no more this kind of biasness, there left fewer ppl tt bother to nagging beside me~~~
May be life is always abt gain and loss, and we can never balance them bah~~~~~~