Today was the most slacking day I had in Hwa Chong! The whole day only got one lecture, the rest of the time is just stoning. Maybe it is just for me and my fellow CCAless pplz bah!!! It seems like dame empty when you see the whole sch is preparing for the open house tml, then only you is slacking at ur CT bentch, staring at all the bannars so hard but still cannot find any piece tt is linked to you.Quoted from zhou jing, the noob who is in the same mood as me:"such a big school compound 却没有歌坊的容身之处, 这么大的学校却容不下我们小小的梦想. We just wanna sing, we just wanna enjoy ourselves, is it tt difficult?"Sooo happy tt Gabriel came back, 3 of us chit chat loudly in the cateen for quite a while, then we slowly migrate to the LTs, try to find any free piano for me and zhou jing to practice the song. OMG, Gabriel was dame pro lah, he just lightened me up on the complicating chords tt I am dealing with, now I like sort of get the gist of the pop piano liao!! haha!! dame happy!!! Thanks Gabriel!We stayed in the AVT all the way until 5 plus, went back to CT bench to take our bags. The school was filled with white figures. Soooo fast, it is graduation ceremony for our seniors alr! Dun noe y, both zhou jing and I started to emo, very soon it will be us wearing the white shirt and the red hwa chong tie, I really wonder how will i feel at tt point of time, happy? sad? or reluctant?=(((On the way sending Gabriel out, zhou jing suddenly sighed tt" Ai, they r not coming back to school liao." I stunned at tt instant when she said tt, huh, so fast? I still have not realise tt, still happily enjoy my stonning days at the CT bench, they r not coming back liao, they r considered as alumni liao!Two of us walked into the sch again at abt 6 plus from the second door, wanted to go AVT to continue practice, but the front door is closed. while searching for other altenative ways to enter, we found this small room, which is the only one opened on the third floor of the B block. It is the room tt controls the whole electrical system of sch, there were a lot of machines and buttons, I wandered if we press some then the whole sch will be in the dark. The noob was worrying tt if the machine explose how? I ignored her and sat down in the empty space in the room. I started to sing Cai Hong of Jay Chou:"看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着, 你的身影这么近我却抱不到. 没有地球太阳还是会绕, 没有理由我也能自己走. 你要离开, 我知道很简单. 你说依赖是我们的阻碍, 就算放开, 那能不能别没收我的爱,当作我最后才明白." Zhou jing said it suits me......We chat a lot in tt room, there were a lot of things for us to emo abt, both of us have our own problems which are unsolvable...... I did not really go for it, because there were a lot of thing held me back, most of it was myself. I think a lot though I dun want to, it is just my character tt cannot be changed le bah, poor me!!
On the way home, I think a lot as usual, I found my heart really hurts......Found this poem which I wrote as my CLL home work long time ago, it finally came true this time:别了, 那阳光
当夏日的第一缕阳光渗入我的世界,
我就注定是你的追随者.
潜藏着一丝惬意徘徊在不远的远处,
等待着潇湘一样的樱桃.
沉醉,
那浅浅的海滩,
那层层的细浪.
着迷,
那柔柔的波光,
那暖暖的气息.
但你像一座孤傲的岛,
有自己的城堡.
而我是上不了岸的潮,
只能将你围绕.
犹豫,彷徨,狰狞……
从C大调到B小调,
从轻快到沉郁,
谱写着心的点滴.
深深,深呼吸,
挥别那时的青涩,
选择背对阳光的世界.
我所期待的幸福遥远，
是与现实的距离.
我所期待的幸福迷茫，
是与现实的对比.
Ren lao shi said tt he like 但你像一座孤傲的岛,有自己的城堡. 而我是上不了岸的潮,只能将你围绕. but this was not composed by me, it is some lyrics.I like 沉醉,那浅浅的海滩,那层层的细浪. 着迷,那柔柔的波光,那暖暖的气息. Maybe only me understand wad does it mean bah. It really means a lot to me bah!