20.6.0812:44 pm
these days.............

我是爱他吗？

那个懵懂的我，遇见了你，在那个季节，
那个傻傻的你，恰好带着，灿烂的笑意．
什么都不懂的我，开始想要看到你．
就这样，我忘记，我需要先爱自己．

只是听过你的点滴，
只是读过你的日记，
挑剔的我就这样沉迷；
没勇气参与你的现在，
来不及参与你的过去，
渺小的我在角落叹息．

一个人写信，一个人谈心，
一个人对着自己传简讯．
一个人迟疑，一个人望着上线的你，
一个人为忘不了而哭泣．
　　
不停问自己，我是爱他吗？
但为何如此迷惘．
连自己都不敢相信．

一个人陷进，一个人希冀，
一个人怀疑这不是自己．
一个人看你，一个人不想打扰到你，
一个人思恋想像中的你．

你的姿态，你的青睐，我存在在你的存在．

Here is a very nice song to share, if u r wandering this super nice song is writen by who, I shall tell u, it is writen by ME! ahhaha! The melody is in my mind, if u r interested in this super nice song composed by me, u can come and look for me!=)

Actually I think the whole song is seriously not bad, except the firse two lines of the verse, I think I will seek help to modify the melody. I like the chorus most but my dear zhou jing like the pre-chorus most. Ok lah, nvm, all very nice!! ahhaha! I seem like so zi lian here!! ahhaha! I LOVE MYSELF!:D

The song just come out very randomly. It was a fine afternoon, when I just finish mugging my enzyme notes, I sat down and slacked for a while. I took out my protein notes and mind map which was the one I hate most! I dun even want to open the mind map tt I spent dun noe how many nights doing it. It wad at tt that instant, the melody suddenly came out from my mouth which I found quite nice. I recorded it down, and started to write the lyrics. Surprisingly, it just took me half an hour to finish the first chorus, the bridge and the second chorus. That gave me confidance to continue, I thought abt the ending for quite long, I wanted to use one of 梁静茹's song as ending. I tried 勇气，Fly away as well as Cest la vie, but finally I decided to use 崇拜, cos it matched both the lyrics and the melody very well. Then I went back to the pre-chorus, it was also very 顺! ahha! Then I came to the headache part-- the verse, I spent most time on it, but in the end it is the part I want to modify most. Nvm, forget abt it first. This marks the end of my day. I did not finish wad I suppose to finish, forget abt it also!! ahha! That was when I realised I could not be a MUGGER!! 55555~~~~~ blocks DIE!!!=(

Then after tt, at night, Jin Dao ask me to send him. The first question he asked me after reading it was: R U IN LOVE? I was like??? errrr. forget abt it! Then he ask me wad does 我需要先爱自己 mean? It was wad my CLL teacher told us during our lesson last time, she said tt we all must love ourselves first, before falling in love with someone else. I found it quite true but it was really difficult to do, tt is why I keep reminding myself: I LOVE MYSELF! ahhahahaha!

Tt is all abt my song!haha!=) Actually why I nv blog for so long is not because of writing this song, also cannot be busy mugging cos I did not mug much. It is because of the stupid clothes sponsor of my concert lah. I am so troubled by it. The sponsor actually reject most of the clothes we returned lah, they like so critical in checking all those clothes, we alr try our best to keep the clothes in brand new condition, but the problem is the clothes they sponsored us were not in brand new condition oringinally. This made me doubt the aim of the company of sponsoring us clothes. The lundry was also responsible for this as they nv dry wash the clothes properly and caused some damages to the clothes such as color run etc. Very luckily, out of 8 sets of my clothes, 5 sets of dresses had been rejected, all my dresses are above 100, GG!! I felt like jump off the highest building of the sch with my other friends. OMT, 500 plus leh! I really felt like been cheated! Btw, congradulations to me, my mum is not going to sponsor me any money to pay for the dresses, if they really ask me to pay for it I will really jump off the building!!!!55555555555~~~~ I was like the most lucky person in the concert lah, all my clothes were more expensive than other ppl's, seriously GG. On the other hand, I buy soooo many prom dresses for wad, am I look like a person got sooooo many proms to attend meh? 气死了，气死了，气死了！！！！！！！！！！！

The issue was serious until we were going to sue both of the companies!!!!!!! I am very scared, if the sponsor complain to sch, the sch may not allow us to hold a concert next year, if the issue become more serious, the sch may just close down gefang. That is wad the seniors said, soooooooo scary, if it is like tt, I will be CCAless, dun want!!!!!!55555555555~~~~~~~~

I cannot see the sun rise of the near future!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

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Fu Xiao Chun

20 years old

6th September 1990

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where I belong

[x] `Ares

[x] `08S72

[x] `Gefang

[x] `HCI LEP

[x] `Taekwondo


I love myself

[x] `My space

[x] `My blog

[x] `My friendster

[x] `My facebook


concert family

[x] `Angeline

[x] `Brandon

[x] `Eve

[x] `Eric

[x] `Germaine

[x] `JiaJun

[x] `Meiting

[x] `Meiling

[x] `Qinny

[x] `Shiqi

[x] `Shaowei

[x] `Welson

[x] `Xingyi

[x] `Yang Lu

[x] `Zhiyang

[x] `Zhou Jing

[x] `Tian Shui

[x] `Sam

[x] `Mavis

[x] `yokie


memories @ HCI

[x] `Del

[x] `Shilbe

[x] `Elizabeth

[x] `Pei Hua

[x] `Hwei Ee

[x] `Valencia

[x] `Jin Dao

[x] `Qiu Han

[x] `Yan Jie

[x] `Ren Qi


memories @ Cedar

[x] `Zoe

[x] `Liu Xi

[x] `Li Xue

[x] `Iris

[x] `Yong Ning

[x] `Jia Yuan

[x] `Sze Min

[x] `Wan Ling

[x] `Sze Hong

[x] `Siti

[x] `Zaferin

[x] `Easter


my dears

[x] `Yu Ying