chunchunの爱

blank...

2011-06-22T23:07:00.004+08:00

when too many things become out of control, there is a period of blank out...

Dun want to do anything, dun want to think through, just stone...

I dun believe it is the final statement. When the guessing becomes a fact, it really feels different...

It is still noisy after turning off all other programs that are running on my comp...

I need peace...

痛，说一次就复习一次

处处无家处处家

2011-03-02T15:23:00.006+08:00

最近又搬了一次家。搬家这种事对大部分人来说可以算是让人兴奋又值得期待的，但我似乎已经忘记了那种感觉。这五年来，新加坡的东南西北都住过了，对于搬家这个词早就已经麻木了。有趣的是一开始一个德士就能搬完的家，现在要用一个大货车才能搬完了，或许以后还会增加？

搬家当然离不开整理东西那一堆麻烦事，而每一次整理东西都伴随着一个漫长的心路历程。走进自己的过去，再看一次那个陌生又熟悉的自己，然后把这些好的，不好的回忆统统打包，放进一个个的整理箱里，等待着再一次打开这潘多拉的盒子。

书架上的东西似乎没有什么大的变动。相册仍旧是那几本，这个年代应该没有几个人还用相册这种老土的方式来保存照片。小说, 唱片还是那那么一点，除了学校强制买的和朋友送的，我几乎没有买过什么。

记得小时候特别喜欢收藏书，除了自己定期会去书店挑几本世界名著之外，还有同学之间传看的青春校园文学类的小说，不过这类书我都是跟朋友借来看过后，觉得不错才去书店买。现在回头看，觉得自己当时的想法的确有点可爱，明明都已经读完了的书，还是硬要去买一本新的回家收藏。当时的我好像觉得这一类的书比世界名著更有收藏价值，所以都以全新的书好好珍藏，而且还告诉自己，等到我老了，退休以后，闲在家里没有事情做的时候，可以重读这些青春文学，回味年少时的趣事。。。-__- 不过这些书现在在哪里我就不知道了，好像有一次搬家的时候被我全仍掉了，看到那些幼稚的封面图画，我大概觉得这辈子都不可能再碰那些书了吧，哈哈。

这次整理衣柜成了最心酸的事情。。。衣柜里的东西不少，过于幼稚的，不想再穿的通通丢掉，但有这么一包围数不小的东西我不知道该怎么处理。已经好几个月了，我就靠着长裤和黑色打底裤活了好几个月了。当然我过得不错，可以算是蛮开心的。虽然没有休闲的短裤，但这日子也还是悠闲自在的。我几乎忘记了我是一个爱穿短裤的人。。。黑色的，白色的，穿过很多次的，没穿几次的全都得包起来。为了让我的衣柜有地方放更多长裤，这些必须得清理掉。

与其说是为了遮丑，还不如说是为了遮住自己的眼睛，其实没有人会特别注意到某人脚踝上的伤疤，看得最多，最在意的还是某人自己。可以说我是在逃避这个问题，也可以说在这个问题上我已经看得很开了。还在轮椅上的时候曾今幻想我要复原到受伤以前的状况，包括脚上的伤疤我也要它消失的无影无踪，不过后来意识到，如果能正常的走路，可以偶尔跑步或是跳舞就已经是谢天谢地的事情了。所以，我放弃了，应该说是看开了，医生特地开的去疤的药也不再用了，没有用了，就这样了。我已经有了这辈子都靠长裤和黑色打底裤过的打算，不过没什么，就这样也可以活得很精彩。我是这么想的，那些叫做短裤，短裙还是高跟鞋的，就让它们待在柜子深处的黑角吧，或许，只是或许，会有那么一天我可以让它们重见天日。

我的新家不大，却有着温馨的色调，客厅是蓝色的，卧室是粉色的，有几盆盆栽，不过我想它们应该活不了多久了，因为我不是一个有闲情逸致养花的人。其实屋子在哪里，有多冠冕堂皇还是多破旧都不要紧，有亲人在就算是家了。＝）

This is the real starting~~~=)

2011-01-28T18:15:00.003+08:00

Sem 2 starts in a much nicer way. It feels so good to be able to control where I am going! YAYYY~~~=)))

And, it is so nice to make new friends in class as well as in hall. I feel really happy that we can walk to the classrooms together!=)

And, finally I dun need to be the first to go tutorial classes, I can sit at anywhere I want in the LT! Claps!=D

It is really nice to see strangers become friends, friends become close friends and close friends become best friend!=)

This is going to be an exciting sem ahead!=DDD

因為失去過，所以比別人更懂得珍惜像這樣雙腳着地的日子。。。

現在，我想精彩的活着，加倍精彩的活着，把曾經屬於我的精彩通通活過來。

闷

2011-01-18T02:21:00.000+08:00

I am not depressed and not happy obviously, just 闷

闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷闷

I need Patience...

2010-12-22T11:41:00.003+08:00

Sem 1 is finally over...

How to conclude my sem 1, I really have no idea. It is not just one or two words can summarize...

It could be called a nightmare. The sem is abt 3-month long, I missed nearly 1/2 of it, and the remaining 1/2 of it, I was in pain, discomfort and also depression, disappointment. It is really difficult to carry on life with an abnormal status. A lot of times I want to give up, I am not strong enough to face the odd stares from the crowd, I dun like it when I have to sit alone in class and dun really have many friends in class, I dun like it when I am the last of class, I dun like it when my uni life is all abt mugging. I hate this kind of life, I hate this kind of feeling. If this was all of my life, I would quit school and lock myself in my room and rot...

However, I think God really loves me a lot, He sent this group of ppl to my life. Though I only know them in June, it really feels like family when I was with them. Because of them, I know why I must smile and be optimistic. There was this place I could go after my horrible lessons. There were ppl who border to talk to me, there were ppl willing to teach me all the lessons I missed and there were ppl help me pack my meals from canteen... Exam period was the happiest time for me in the whole sem, cos I got to study with this group of ppl everyday, I no need to go class or lecture to face tt kind of strange atmosphere that I dun like.

I had thousands of plans of wad I want to do after I recover, sad to say, now it is still not the right time to fulfill those plans. The pain reminds me tt I am not fully recovered, I cannot walk too much, I need to sit down and raise my leg above my heart level, I need to go for physio to relax my tightened ligament. I have plenty of time now, but there is nth much I can do. I become impatient for this thing, it takes too long of my time...

Was flipping through my diary when I was in hospital, I think hospital is really a good place for ppl to calm down their hearts. I was much more patient at tt time than now... The more I have, the more I expect...

go away pain!!!!

2010-12-18T17:01:00.003+08:00

"就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉, 死不了就还好"

a little bit of digress~~~

2010-12-03T20:06:00.002+08:00

Just had a very strong feeling of self unworthiness...

I noe I should not have this kind of feeling, but just let me emo for this moment. I am tired of being optimistic, tired of smiling...

I always think it is easier to be optimistic as u need not to explain y u r happy, on the other hand, u need to explain a lot y u r sad...

Actually I am not sad, just full of sorrowfulness of my life now...

There is this group of ppl who have being very supportive and touching, and I really enjoy my time with them. But seems like other than this, there is no excitement in life. I never feel so friendless and helpless...

Can't wait for this hell like semester to over!!!! Regarding the result, I shall say try my best can alr~~~

Okay enough digress, I shall be back to my dame a lot catch up works!!! Calm down and really concentrate! Continue be optimistic, faithful and smiley!

It shouldn't be called LIFE if it is too easy...

2 years alr~~~

2010-11-29T10:12:00.002+08:00

I will remember my promise and keep my promise to you!<3

But, still miss u a lot~~~

A poem~~~

2010-11-24T09:55:00.002+08:00

一棵开花的树

-------席慕容

如何让你遇见我

　　在我最美丽的时刻

　　为这——

　　我已在佛前求了五百年

　　求它让我们结一段尘缘

　　佛于是把我化做一棵树

　　长在你必经的路旁

　　阳光下慎重地开满了花，

　　朵朵都是我前世的盼望

　　当你走近请你细听

　　那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情

　　而当你终于无视地走过

　　在你身后落了一地的

　　朋友啊　那不是花瓣，

　　是我凋零的心

English Translation

　　A Blooming Tree

　　May Buddha let us meet

　　in my most beautiful hours,

　　I have prayed for it

　　for five hundred years.

　　Buddha made me a tree

　　by the path you may take,

　　In full blossoms I’m waiting in the sun

　　every flower carrying my previous hope.

　　As you are near, listen carefully

　　the quivering leaves are my waiting zeal,

　　As you pass by the tree

　　without noticing me,

　　My friend, upon the ground behind you

　　is not the fallen petals but my withered heart.

I am wearing the "如何让你遇见我, 在我最美丽的时刻" T-shirt today, have being wearing it for more than 2 yrs alr, but I only find out the full poem recently. It is rather beautiful!=))) Dun noe y the english version sounds weird to me, but I really love the chinese version a lot a lot!<3

2010-11-05T15:59:00.001+08:00

Before departure...

2010-11-03T17:57:00.007+08:00

Since I am sick of studying alr, I shall post a poem here...

(Disclaimer; this is not a emo post!=D)

WHEN I CAN WALK

When I can walk, I will go and leave my foot prints in every corner of NTU!!!

When I can walk, I will go sit in the front row of LT1A!!!

When I can walk, I will go class late and slip into the classroom without disturbing anyone!!!

When I can walk, I will go camouflaged in the NTU crowd!!!

When I can walk, I will go shop until I faint!!!

When I can walk, I will go sing K until the receptionist can easily recognize me!!!

When I can walk, I will go appreciate my days of wearing dress or skirt!!!

When I can walk, I will go......

When I can walk, I will carry on the life time task of every woman---LOSE WEIGHT!!!

BUT NOW......

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can lift up my leg on another chair in public places;

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can being wheeled around;

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can be easily identified in the crowd;

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can sit at the back of the LT, observing everyone;

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can use the handicap toilet fair and square;

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can.......

Let me enjoy the last few times that I can be so short;

AFTER THIS......

I will announce to the world; I HAVE "ENJOYED" ENOUGH......

It is mean to be tough~~~

2010-10-19T12:50:00.003+08:00

I am really very very tired of this~~~

But if it is mean to be like this, I just have to believe and be strong......

Pain is good!=)))

Never feel your presence so strongly as these days...

"Not by might, nor by power but by my spirit, says the Lord Almighty, you will succeed because of my Spirit, though you are few and weak." Zechariah 3:6

And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

Unchangeable
Unshakeable
Unstoppable
That's what You are

2010-10-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

坚强，勇敢......

sep 2010

2010-09-25T12:09:00.002+08:00

B4 sep 2010 disappear from my blog, I shall write sth here...

Sep 2010 indescribable... There is joy, there is sorrow. There is love, there is pain......

Quite busy now, there are a lot of things to catch up~~~

The meaning of travel~~~

2010-08-03T15:33:00.004+08:00

About to set off for my first journey without my parents......

It means a lot to me~~~the very first time I try to be financially and mentally independent......

Yes, I am going to seek for my meaning of travel~~~=)))

To my dear readers~~~

2010-08-02T09:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Readers;

I decided to remove the chat box from my blog because of too much junk comments. If u have anyth to comment abt my posts, pls contact me through email, MSN, HP, Facebook etc...

Love
XiaoChun<3

It is all aftershock~~~

2010-07-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

Very long nv cry when I am watching movies alr. This is actually the first time tt I cry so long for a movie~~~

A lot of things are covered in this, like family, love, life and fate. It links the tang2 shan1 earthquake to si4 chuan1 earthquake in a very natural and touching way. It made me think a lot a lot.....

Nice to noe tt I am not a over sensitive viewer. At first, a lot of ppl were eating their nachols or popcorns as usual, but as the movie played, ppl put down their food and took out their tissue~~~ when the movie ended, no one left the cinema, until the screen was totally black out. There was a staff standing at the exit with a plastic bag, ppl through their tissues inside when they left the cinema~~~

I seriously dun mind watching it again with a box of tissue~~~

Happy to be busy!=)))

2010-07-29T13:24:00.002+08:00

Office hours were the slackest time of my day for the past few months! Now, after ending my job, this is still true, but the difference is now I am completely off from work=no slacking time in my dayyyyy~~~

Yes, I am quite busy with all my tuitions. I got 7 kids now, and I did promise the parents tt I could have more tuition sections with their kids after my work in Aug. Somemore, all of a sudden, I decided to go Australia and travel!!!=)))) So, must plan make ups for all my tuition kids!!! I have at least 2 tuitions a day for this week, I think when I come back from Australia, it will increase to 3 bah~~~

I talked to one of my sec sch bestie, who is studying in Aus now, last Fri. She invited me to go Aus to visit her. I really want to go travel b4 sch starts, but because of a lot of commitment here and there I keep delaying my travel plan. When she asked me on Fri day, my heart was really shaking leh. I was quite worried abt my tuition kids, if I go travel for one week, then later on got another hall camp for one week, their studies how...... However, all of a sudden again, I received a lot of message from the parents again, I was so happy to hear tt there are actually many other time I can give tuition to their kids. Like, got 1 p1 kid, who is schooling in the afternoon, tt means i can plan a lot of tuition for him in the morning, tt is really very easy to catch up!!!=)))

After a weekend's planning for all the tuition makeups, on Mon I made up my mind of going Aus to travel!=))) Very soon get all my materials to go and apply a visa to AUS, though I met a lot of problems there, finally, I manage to get my visa yesterday and I have bought my air ticket yesterday also!!!!!=)))) Yes finally i am stepping out of Asiaaaaaa~~~~~=DDDD

Sooooooooooo happyyyyyyy!!!!!=))))))

wake up half way...

2010-07-15T04:46:00.005+08:00

it is still dark outside my window, dun noe y i wake up so early and cannot fall asleep alr......

Since I am using my phone to blog now, shall upload a photo which I wanted to upload last week, but just too lazy to dig out my wire~~~ haha

YL and me with our sisters!=))) Taken after watching DISPICABLE ME! It was really a nice movie to watch!=DDD

This song came to my mind, at the middle of the night~~~

2010-07-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

Dun noe y, this song came to my mind at midnight~~~

The lyrics goes like this:

Journey

it's a long long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be
it's a long long journey
i don't know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i am lost and know that i must hide
it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you

many days i've spent
drifting on through empty shores
wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong

i know i will falter i know i will cry
i know you'll be standing by my side
it's a long long journey
and i need to be close to you

sometimes it feels no one understands
i don't even know why i do the things i do
when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul
will you break down these walls and pull me through

cause it's a long long journey
till i feel that i am worth the price
you paid for me on calvary
beneath those stormy skies

when satan mocks and friends turn to foes
it feel like everything is out to make me lose control
coze it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you...to you

Every single word make sense to me......

This journey with God is a long long journey. The end of it will be the house of Lord, where eternity existed. I dun noe wad kind of difficulties I am going to enconter in the future, but I won't be afraid, cos I noe I am in the family of God where love overcomes all the worriers......

Feel so loved by God as well as the family of God!=))))

John 1:12
"Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become chidren of God."

Good Night world!=)

This is stupid~~~

2010-06-30T19:42:00.004+08:00

Last day of the month is a busy day 4 everyone, including me. Rushed out the monthly account report this morning and printed out the statement of account this afternoon. Wanted to off on time, but there was still a 5-minute delay.

I rushed out of the office at 5:05, the lift seemed not so co-orperative as usual, but today, I did not have the luxury of time to wait for it. I ran down from the staicase, I guessed no one would do tt in this modern world. The staircase of the building was narrow and enclosed, I could hear the very loud echo of my heels, which made me feel uncomfortable......

7 levels were not an easy task for me, I was very chuan3 when I reached the ground, but still walking in a speed tt was higher than average. I saw the bus when I was at the cross road, which was approximately 50 meters away from the bus stop. I nv hesitate at that cross road there, after the light turned green, I straight away ran towards the bus stop with my high heels and knee-lengthed skirt.

At tt point of time, I nv think about how unglam I was, I just kept telling myself tt if I missed the bus, I would be late for my tuition and my tuition kid would be waiting for me. Yes, I finally catched the bus with many ppl staring at me, felt paiseh for making the bus uncle to open the door again just for me~~~

I was praying hard that the bus won't be stucked in the bukit timah jam. Thank God, my prayer worked, I reached CCK at 5:55, just nice for me to walk to my tuitee's house......

I pressed the bell for 3 times, finally the maid opened the door, she was shocked when she saw me. She told me tt the boys were not back yet, I was shocked also. She let me into the house, I sat on the sofa. The only clock in the house showed it was 6pm sharp at tt moment......

I told her tt I would wait for a while. I took out a story book from my bag, and opened it to the page I stopped, but somehow, no lines came into my mind......

I have being staring at the page I stopped for quite some time, it seemed like I forever could not finish reading tt page~~~

Finally, I heard foot steps of kid running to the house from the corridor outside, I thought it was my P5 tuitee. However, the one actually opened the door was his elder brother, who was my sec 2 tuitee......

He saw me sitting on the sofa, and sensed tt sth was wrong. He asked me whether his brother came back or not while stepping into the house. I shaked my head and asked him whether he noe where did his brother go?

His answer was good enough to break my heart, he said, may be Yew Tee CC, cos his brother always go there to play basketball after school. I asked him, did his brother remember tt we actually have tuition make up today? The next answer was even more heart breaking. He said, his brother knew tt, cos he actually helped me to remind his brother last night......

I could not think of anything to say at tt instant. I packed my bag and stood up, I told my sec 2 tuitee to ask his father to give me a call, and then I left the house. When I was wearing my shoes, I was quite touched tt my sec 2 tuitee asked me not to worry, he would scold his brother.

I took out my handphone while was waiting for the lift. It was 6:30pm. I dialed a number, and realised it was my mum's no after pressing the green button...... I put the phone next to my face, ohh no it was wet. I hang up the phone immediately and took out my tissue paper...... First time of my life tt I actually want to say thank you personally to my mum, wanted to thank her for so concerning abt my studies and thank her for being so strict on teaching me to show respect to ppl around me......

It was so stupid, why should I cry? Yes, he was my tuitee for 2.5 months, but after all, he is still considered as a stranger in my life! I did not cry when I fractured my left wrist twice, I did not cry when I cut myself and was sent to hospital to stitch the wound for 3 times. Why should I cry over a kid, who is not related to me at all. Why should I border abt it? I really wonder WHY? WHY? WHY?

I really played my part and tried my best to encourage him to study. This was actually not the first time tt his attitude disappointed me. I knew he was not interested in Chinese, so I tried to buy some sweet or chocolate as a reward for him to study chinese. I even signed an agreement with him tt if he manage to get 65 marks out of hundred for his chinese exam, I would buy a better basketball for him. I was thinking, if this could motivate him to study hard, I really dun mind spend on it. However, I think I was wrong. His attitude towards chinese was just pass can alr, no matter how hard I tried to motivate him to aim higher.

I supposed to teach him and his elder brother chinese and math. But 80% of the time I was teaching him Math, simply because he refused to bring his chinese text books back ever sinced I asked him to revise for ting1 xie3. I texted his mom, asking her to give me a call when she is free, cos I could not see her most of the times when I go his house, but no response from her. Finally managed to see her on one of the tuition day, talked to her abt his son's condition, but she was in a rush, did not talk much also. Therefore, no changes after talking to the parent.

I gave up on the parents and turned to the elder brother, who was my sec 2 tuitee. I asked him to supervise his brother, and I received changes. The boy brought his chinese text book back, but he did not noe how to write the sheng1 zi4 at all. His school would moving on to 5B in this new school term and he was still at the first lesson of 5A. I had to teach him one word by one word and forced him to remember how to write the words, cos he won't touch his chinese after lesson......

Sometimes I really wonder why, these 2 brothers have the same parents, the same family background and the same tuition teacher, howcome the outcomes of tuition are so different. The sec 2 kid showed big improvements in both chinese and math, but the p5 kid does not show much. I admit tt he is smarter than his sec 2 brother, but his attitude was sth I tried hard but failed to change. His sec 2 brother had a very positive attitude compare to him. He really concentrated on every 1 and half an hour tuition section i had with him and finished the work I asked him to do, and he would scold his p5 brother when he was not paying attention or even yawning during the tuition......

I feel better now~~~

I miss my lovely toysssss~~~

2010-06-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

Just watched Toy Story 3. It was really a nice movie to watch with friends!!!=))))

The ending was quite touch. It made me miss the toys I played when I was young. They were like my siblings, always company me and always hug me. But I dun noe where are they NOW~~~~ 5555~~~ I miss them!!!=))) My white bear bear, little yellow ducky, grey mousy, nerdy doggy, gold hair barbie and many many moreeeee!!! Where have yall gone!!!!!=(((((

unlucuky and unglam day~~~

2010-06-16T11:28:00.002+08:00

Yes I finally reach the office......

I am wet from head to toe, not because I did not bring an unbrella when I go out of my house~~~

Haix, I was waiting for bus at a bus stop, there was this dun noe wad car drove pass me in a high speed, the water accumulated on the floor all spilt on me!!! Dame unglam lah~~~~ ahhhhh~~~~ =(((((

I am queuing for the hand dryer in the toilet now, the stupid rain made a lot of ppl wet~~~STOP RAINING NOW!!!!!

just like the lyrics.....

2010-06-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

I think there should not be any doubt tt they are together. The way they sing, they dance they interact with each other all showed tt they are together agian. Actually, I prefer Jolin to be together with Show more, but since this is her decision, then hope she would be happy with Jay lor......

Their story is just like the lyrics of 一首歌的时间，and they just need 一首歌的时间 to be together again......

给我一首歌的时间
周杰伦

雨淋湿了天空
灰的很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受
这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里
你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿的天空
灰的很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛

迷路的后过
我能承受
这最后的出口
在爱过了才有有
你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气

请告诉我而暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆

rap 你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
你说我不该不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
我只有一天的回忆

Bravo Saturdays!!!=))))

2010-05-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

Went to support lin lao shi for the best chinese teacher 2010 award ceremony in Suntec City!!!=))) Very happy tt he won the prizeeee!!!!=))))

Lin lao shi receiving the award!!!=)))

haha, lao shi was sooooo happy! hehe!!=DDD

Yayyy! Group photo with zhang lao shi, lin lao shi and Mr Chan!!!=)))

Lunch with zhang lao shi at a jap restaurant in millenia walk!!!<3333 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_lU3pZrapzwI/TAETstBiyUI/AAAAAAAABRo/2N6HjiMdXvw/s1600/29052010412.jpg">

We went to watch sex and the city 2 in the afteroon. It was really a very funny and glamourous show!!!=)))

Love this song in the movie!!! <333

This is awesome~~~

2010-05-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

Was searching through youtube, finally found this video which Brondon showed me and yang lu last time, dame shocking......

This is how charice being discovered......

I like I will always love you!!!! Her voice soooo powerful!!!

tiring but happy and fulfield~~~

2010-05-23T21:14:00.003+08:00

It was expected tt from 8 am to 8pm today, I did not have time to sit down and eat......

Got up at 8 am today, finished my church section at abt 10:30. Had half an hour to eat my lovely Sushi Lunchbox!=))) It was really good tt it last me the whole day!><

Reached CCK at 12. My sec 2 tutee surprised me with a good news tt he got 88/100 for his math mid year, which was the second of his class!!! Wowww~~~ claps claps. When I first took him in Apr, he failed his math CA1 badly. I was really happy tt he could improve so fast.

Somemore, he got 10/20 for his Chinese si1 han2, which he said he could only get 6 or 7 in the past. And he got 22/50 for ji4 xu4 wen2, he said it supposed to be 25, but he got minus 3 marks because of cuo4 bie2 zi4. Though it was still fail, there was an slight improvement lha. At tt time when he took his mid year, he did not know how to check dictioneries, so he might not be able to check the charaters he did not know how to write. I taught him how to check dictionaries today and I think he would do better next time!=)))))

His brother, who is my p5 tutee also managed to pass his math midyear, though his chinese was still not good. I decided to emphasis more on chinese for both of them from the next section onwards. Hope they can do even better next time!!!=)))))

Finished tuition with them at 3 plus. I had to rush to AMK to take a sec 3 Chinese class. The sun at 3 pm was just too hot to make ppl dizzy. Ppl sitting in the MRT all took this time to take a nap, including me. haha>< It was all freashed after the short nap. I quickly walked to the tuition centre, just in time to take the 4 pm class. The students were all well behaved, so I actually went quite fast, in the end, they only had 3 questions as homework!=)

The class finished at 6, stayed back to settle some admin stuff, then tt is all for today!=) Enjoyed the journey back home with the sunset and my earpiece~~~=)))

This is the kind of life I like, tiring but happy and fulfield~~~=)))))

Saturdays are always wonderful!!!=)))

2010-05-22T18:59:00.006+08:00

Went to meet my new tutees this morning. Their house is just opposite HC, so it is easy for me to go there!=)

Since I have to cross over to HC side to take bus home, I walked further down to Coronation to buy bubble tea! Though the bubble tea there is not the best, it somehow reminds me of my school days where I used to buy a lot of drinks there......haha! I miss school alr!!><

While I was waiting for the uncle to prepare the drink, I saw the anties cooking at the back. Suddenly felt like eating the lemon chicken rice there. I wasn't very keen in their food last time, but I had no choice, cos tt was the nearest store from school. Everytime if the school cateen is not open, I had to go there to eat. haha, sounds a bit reluctant, but all these are fond memories~~~=)))

I ordered lemon chicken rice to take away. I told the anty no need to give me spoon and fork, the anty seemed very happy and kept thanking me for tt. In the end she gave me two packet of lemon source~~~haha! So I am the winner in this deal! LOL!!XDDD

Enjoyed my lemon chicken rice and bubble tea at home. I realised I nv eat it for at least half a year. Wowww~~~ It tasted nice after some time, and I even found it taste like sprite?!!! I went to check the ingredients of sprite, there were really lemon acids leh!!! hahahaha~~~~=DDDD

I realised I did not bring the key for my room this morning, I had to stay in the living room for the rest of the day. Luckily my comp was there, I thought I can spent the rest of my day with my comp, but I got bored after a while~~~haha!

I was stoning, and realised tt tml would be a tiring day for me, I probably would not have time to eat the whole day. Need to go church early in the morning and immediately after tt would rush for a tuition in CCA, then need to go AMK to take another tuition class~~~Since I was quite free, I decided to make a lunch box for myself, so I won't be starving tml.

There were still some sushi vinegar and seaweed in the fridge, alright, I shall make sushi again!!!=))) However, there was no lattice or seafood to make the toppings, I tried my best to use wadever I can find at home, it was a good attempt I think, haha!=)

Meat floss, the simplest

Smash potato with bacon (It is actually quite fattening, cos all are CARBOHYDRATES!!!)

And preserved duck egg with soya sauce (I think my mum will like this one, cos every time she eat sushi, she will add a lot of soya sauce. haha, take is as specially invented for her lor, LOL)

And nv forget to make a set for my mum and my god sister!=)

suddenly stop here~~~

2010-05-14T15:16:00.004+08:00

It is 3:30 pm now, I am stoning in the office, cos my boss havnt print out the invoices for me to carry on my work.

Start to think abt a lot of things which had happened and also things going to happen......

I am happy to receive offers from courses I like and also looking forward to uni life. But, I miss my friends, I miss the time we laugh out loudly in sch~~~

It is hard to tell the feeling tt, previously u got to see ur friends everyday in sch, then after graduation, can only meet up like once a month. Later on, studying in different unis or even different countries, it is getting more and more difficult to meet up......

I am not sad, just not used to the feeling of not being accompanied, not knowing wad is happening in my friends' lives. Yes there are thousands ways of contacting each other and I am confident that our friendship will last forever, but I will miss them, for sure~~~

Every one of us will have a brigth future!=)))

Mothers' Day Surprise!!!XDDD

2010-05-09T18:12:00.005+08:00

Today is mothers's day!!! Made a lunch box for my mum!<3

Bought back so many staff from supermarket~~~

First thing to do is to cook the rice!!=))

Cool it and add the sushi vinegar~~~

Mix them properly and put the rice in the model~~~

Press hard~

Take out the lovely rice ball~~~haha ><

At the same time boil the sausages and crab sticks, then cool them. It will be faster if there is a fan~~~ haha XDD

Chop the crab stucks in to small pieces and mix them with mayonnaise. Put the crab meat on the rice ball rapped with a layer of seaweed~~~=)))

zoom innnnn~~~ Yummy!!^^

Another type is like this~~~

tasting testing~~~hoho

Nice right?!!! haha!!xDD

Another dish~~ Put the rice into the model, and press hard to ensure tt the rice are stick together!

It is just a normal rice ball like tt, BUT~~~ wait~~~

Add a bit of decorations......

It becomes a lovely doggy~~~ heihei~~~

Now is rabbit~~

Haha, so cute right?!!!

And bear bear~~

Muaks~~~

emmm~~~ not bad~~~ haha!!!

Presenting draft piece~~~

Now, chop the lattice~~

Mix with thousand island sauce~~~

Display like this~~~=))))

The simplest one~~~meat floss sushi~~~=)))

This is the highly recomended one!!! Lattice sushi!!!=))) Roll the sushi in the traditional way, but just put 2 pieces of lattice inside. Pour some thousand island sauce after chopping the whole roll. The sauce and seaweed will cover the smell of the raw veges, it is healthy and yummy!!!=))))

Zoom in~~~~

Last one with carrot,cucumber, sausage and meat floss inside~~~

Still undone~~

Put sesame on the rice~~~

Done~~~=))))

Yep, I finish in time~~~=)))

Ohh, dun forget soyasauce

and Jap ginger~~~

Yayyyy, I am done~~~=)))

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!!<33333 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_lU3pZrapzwI/S-aMlKrzKzI/AAAAAAAABL4/SyOGyIK35SQ/s1600/DSCF0589.JPG">

It is a sat today~~~

2010-05-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

It is labour day today! I am resting at home, but feeling down tt the coming Mon is not a holiday for me!!!5555~~~ Like tt Labour Day seems not existed and today is just a normal Sat. Haix~~~ I am just one of many many labours in the workforce who being slaved by the evil companies! Haix haix~~~ LOL! Sounds sad, but I just feel like to crap a bit only lah~~~ hoho! ><

Anyway, today is such a wonderful day for me. Sleep until naturally wake up, which is not very late also, around 8 am. After cleaning up my house, I finally got time to sit in front of my keyboard liao. It is really long time no see~~~ haha! Must wipe off the dust before I can play! LOL! Surprisingly I can still remember some songs I used to play. I am amazed by my memory!! Muhahahahaha~~~~^^ I also never forget my guitar at the corner beside my keyboard. Luckily the sounds are all correct, if not I do not noe how to adjust it. After playing a while, I conclude once agian tt PIANO IS MUCH EASIER THAN GUITAR LOR!!! I think the callus on my finger tips last time all droped, tt is y it hurts whenever i press a chord. My finger tips are still hurting now...... 5555~~~~ But manage to learn 2 new songs today!! haha!=)))

I also dig out the ribena I bought a few days ago and start to play with the free gift. I noe it is childish but y not act innocent once a while~~~ hahahaha!!!><

I manage to finish drawing this pic using the 3 colors given. Dame proud of myself! There are only 3 color pens red, yellow and green, but I creat purple using red and green!!! Claps!!=))) Actually there should be one more color orange, which by right can be obtained form red and yellow, but i dun noe y I cannot get tt color!!!! =((((

Here is my art work~~~

Spot the difference of these 2 pics. Hint, there are 2 differences in total!=)

The answer will be reviewed in the next post!=) 欲知后事如何，请听下回分解。^^

See the colors on my hand, this is the price of art~~~ hahahaha!!!=)))

2010-04-26T20:25:00.002+08:00

Just receive a call from NTU Business School, they ask me to go for their interview next week. Though business is my second choice, I am still very happy tt there is finally some one paying attention to my application! haha!! LOL!!XPPPP

Hope everything will be ok! Pray hard and try hard......

not in a good mood~~~

2010-04-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

I AM DAME FREAKING PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope this song can bring me back to serenity!

Office Camhoring

2010-04-09T20:12:00.007+08:00

Yeah! I am working in an Insurance Brooker Company now! Hehe!! Office life is still quite fun to me, cos I only work there for 1 week. Think tt I will spend the rest of my holiday there! haha!!=)))

It is actually a very small company, only got less than 4 ppl there, including the boss. Luckily my boss is very nice. At first he did not want me cos they were looking for full time staff. But when he knew tt I was from HC, he changed his mind immediately!! Ahahaha!!! He told me tt his son and dauter in law were both from HC, so he had a very good impression of HC ppl!! haha! LOL!! I must really thank HC liao, save me once again~~~haha!!><

I must say tt there are seriously a lot of things I can learn from the office work. My boss purposely exposed me to different kind of works, such as Accounting, HR, Bussiness Admin and also secretory works. Everytime when he issue the work for me to do he will explain to me how does it related to the concepts taught in Uni Bussiness Course. I really learn a lot of things from there!!!=)))))

This is my table, which is as messy as any officer's table~~~XPPP

Me, recording down the cheque bank in to the company's account!

Me, calculating the profits of the company! The calculator is very interesting, it will print a receip which shows wad I had key in!!! @_@

This is serious staff, so no disruptions!!! hehe!! ><

Me, typing the invoices for billing! $_$

I handle some phone calls also!!=)))

If there is sth I cannot solve, I will leave a message for my boss~~~keke!

I do have problems sometimes~~~

However, the clever me will try to solve it!!! Bling Bling!!! haha!! Xppp

Other than all those serious works, I do take a break, drink my coffee there~~~=)))

And nv forget to daydream a while! haha!! Daydream of prince charming?!! Or pay increase?!!! haha!! Guess wad, I really get my pay increase today!! Wow, my boss add 200 dollars to my salary after one week of work!!! I am sooooooo happy now!!!=DDDDD

I do slack a bit, but a bit only lah!!! heihei!! ><

And, act cute sometimes~~~LOL!!! ^^

And also zi bai yi xia~~~ heihei!! ^o^

Oops, zi bai liang xia lah!! haha!!><

I worked from 9 am to 5 pm everyday. But yesterday, my boss buy back two dessert for me in the afternoon. Nothig is free! In the end, I volunteered 1 hr to the office work!!! hahahaha!!!

最近爱K这首歌~~~

2010-04-05T21:14:00.005+08:00

只因为在人群中多看了你一眼

再也没能忘掉你的容颜

梦想着偶然能有一天再相见

从此我开始孤单地思念

想你时你在天边

想你时你在眼前

想你时你在脑海

想你时你在心田

宁愿相信我们前世有约

今生的爱情故事不会再改变

宁愿用这一生等你发现

我一直在你身边

从未走远

an afternoon like this~~~

2010-03-16T18:25:00.004+08:00

With a cup of latte, a green tea flavoured macaroon and a book of Haruki Murakami, I spent my afternoon in a Cafe. First time of my life tt I think I am enjoying life~~~haha! XD

The latte just tasted like latte, the macaroon was a bit too sweet for me but the book was brilliant!=)

Was reading Haruki Murakami's books recently. I just finished reading The Norwegian Wood. It was actually the second time I read it, the first time was about 6 yrs ago, when I was in sec1. I did not finish the book at tt time, cos I found the content too adult that I could not accept it. I picked it up recently as a lot of ppl around me recommended this book to me. My comment abt it was wonderful. It might be hard to believe but it was abt the true humanity, the human desire and the relationships. It did not give a very clear difination of love, insteard, it described the teenage life of a man with his friends and girlfriends and this was enough to tell sth.

I was reading another book of Murakami. It was not a noval, there were a lot of short stories in it. Short and sweet and also more room for thought. I found the story called Birthday Girl very interesting. It was talking abt a girl, who was asked to make a wish on her twentieth birthday by a stranger, and the man told her that he would make her wish come true, but only one wish, The girl felt strange of course but she did make a wish at the end. It was not a fairy tale, the man in the story did not have super power also. The girl's wish did not come true immediately. However when she talked abt the man many years later, she knew that the man nv lied to her. Her wish really came true......

Tt was really a meaningful birthday present. I am going to be twenty this year, I was wondering will there be anyone ask me to make a wish and tell me it will come true soon. Will I choose to believe it like a little girl believing in fairy tales or will I just take it as an illusion and don't give it a second thought? I think it will be great if I think it seriously with my twenty-year old mind, and make a wish sincerely. Since I will be twenty, I dun think I will sit still and wait for the angels to make my wish come true. The wish will be the goal I have in mind when I am twenty, the turning point of my life. Then I will work toward the goal just as what I have been taught in the past twenty years of my life. When I really reach the goal many years later, I may think my life is a fairy tale, though I am an adult. Make a wish seriously, u nv know how powerful ur wish can be!=)

It was nice to have an afternoon like this once in a while. I may not be able to sit down and read books like this in the next few months. I will start to work soon. I will find a work to do on weekdays and some other jobs to do at weekends. Like tt, I can only read on the MRT~~~

Share the song 是否 love is over, it was actually the mixture of 2 songs, 是否 and love is over. When I first hear it on TV yesterday, I was totally impressed. The 2 songs perfectly blend together, u can recognise the tone of each song, at the same time, they sound like the harmony of each other!!! It is very very very very niceeeee!!!!=))))))

By the way, did not blog for very long liao, I was busy with different applications in the past few weeks. I was quite worried tt if I could not get in the course I wanted to do, what else I could choose. Glad that I found a few possible choices at the open house. Now I make a decision, I will try to appeal for the course I want, no matter wad, I will love wadever course I get!=)

I am back!!!!

2010-03-04T15:27:00.002+08:00

Yes I am back! I can log in facebook, youtube and my blog lor!!!!hahahaha!!!=)))

Well, my FEB in sichuan was quite fulfilled, but not in the way I planned. Did not get a chance to learn driving, cos there wasn't enough time for me to finish the course and get my licence. However, I found a very good guitar teacher and a very nice sports club, heihei!!!XDDD

There were seriously a lot of dinner to attend. I was alr sick of eating liao. Luckily I signed up as a member of the sports club and tried to go there whenever I am free, if not, I will be seriously overweight now! LOL!

Had fun playing with my lovely doggies!!!=)) They were soooooo cute!!<3333 Shall upload the photos another time!!=PP

Haix, getting back result tml! God bless me ah!!!!

flying off tml~~~

2010-01-23T16:07:00.003+08:00

Yeah! Finally can go back le!!!=))) Tml is the day!!!!hahahaha!!!=DDD

Finished SAT today, yes finally no need to study le!!! hahahaha!! XDDD Must really thank Mrs Foo for tt Evolution notes, if not i did not noe wad to write for my essay!!! LOL!!!><

I alr have a concrete plan for next month!! haha!!XDDD Ahma say will bring me out to eat breakfast every morning, then I can company her to go market. After tt I will go and learn driving, at night can go yogo class with my friend!! May also go and learn guitar on weekends!!!=))) So nice to be busy with sth, it is seriously better than rotting at home!!! haha!!! XPPP

Bought a lot of gifts back. There are seriously a lot of gatherings to attend, I think I will be overweight when I come back bah~~~5555~~~~=(((

Nevertheless, very happy tt I can meet up with many relatives and friends soon!!! hahahaha!!! =)))

No facebook, youtube and blogger for the next month, wish everyone happy CNY, happy valentine's day in advance!!!=)))

So long nv share songs on my blog liao, because of the stupid website was corrupted. Never mind I can still find ways to share songs here!! haha!!><

Wasn't very sure abt wad is new now, was listening to a lot of old songs recently!! haha!! The song I am going to share here is a relatively new song i suppose! I like the melody!! Very hyper and can make ppl feel more confident!! hehe!!XDD

Happy Bday Ahma!!!

2010-01-18T20:57:00.002+08:00

Today is my grandma's birthday!!!=))

So sad I cannot celebrate with her!=( Called home just now, my whole family went out for dinner!!! Ahhhh~~~they are trying to describe to me how delicious the food is~~~5555~~~but I cannot eat NOW!!!!=((( I think my granma is the nicest person, she told me she will treat me when I go back this Sun!!!! WOWWWW!! I LOVE MY GRANDMA!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!<3333

Oh yes!!! 5 more days to go back!!!=))))

HC OPEN HOUSE!!!=)))

2010-01-13T22:55:00.003+08:00

Went back for HC open house. It was very fun!!!

Met a lot of friends and teachers, sooooo nice to see them again!!!=)))

Was watching my TKD juniors performing!!! They were seriously dame zai, dame shuai and dame cool!!!!haha!!! I want to train alr!!! Roarrr~~~~

Actually, I am bored of life after As alr, and I MISS SCH!!!!!><

the lady and the chocolate~~~

2010-01-09T21:06:00.006+08:00

Was studying in the library the whole day. I found a very interesting book in library on my way to the toilet~~~LOL~~~

It was the size of the book that attracted me at first, it was just too tiny compare to other books around it in the fiction area. I thought it was some kind of children's book tt has been placed wrongly here, but actually I found a series of them!

I opened one, there were simple words and drawings inside, but it was really amusing, LOL!! I cannot help laugh there~~~hahahaha~~~LOL made my day!!!

I just share one part tt is appealing to me here~~~hahahaha

"you want me, lady, don't you?" said the chocolate.

"no, chocolate," said the lady, "I do not want you for I am strong. I can resist my fickle urges and my frivolous desires."

"But you need me, lady," said the chocolate. "you know you do!"

"no, chocolate," said the lady.
"I do not need you, for the weight that you put onto my thighs, my waist and my bottom is not worth the satisfaction of the eating."

"ah," said the chocolate, "but think of the rich, silky pleasure as I touch your lips."

"Think of the dark, velvet sweetness as I melt on your tongue. think of the surge of happiness as I dissolve inside you and we become one!"

"eat me lady, and I will tell no one. Eat me!"

"no" shouted the lady. "stop! you are cruel! It is true. Chocolate, that in eating you there is great pleasure. But after the peasure there is sickness and there is guilt.

"but, layd," said the chocolate ,"being eaten is the only reason for my existence."
The chocolate looked at the lady with an expression of the utmost sorrow and a single tear fell to the floor.

Now, the lady was a lady of great kindness and compassion, as many ladies are, and she could not help her heart from going out to the chocolate.

And, with a touch of infinite gentleness, the lady picked up the chocolate and she began to eat.

And, having eaten the chocolate, the lady was overcome by feelings of pleasure more wonderful than she had ever known before.

The moral of the story is, let all ladies know that it is not they who need chocolate for happiness. It is chocolate that needs them.

Ahhhahahaha~~~Finally find a valid reason to eat chocolate!!!XDDD

Surprisingly, the author of the book is a American philosopher!! Woww~~tt means I have to think this in a philosophic manner~~~

emm~~~though the story is about a lady, it is a good reflection of the female's mentality. Girls will start conversation with things they like, such as chocolate, shoes, bags etc. There are thousand reasons for not buying them, but just 1 reason for buying can convince the girls~~~ ahhahahaha~~~

Though I souded like I alr understand the theory, the saddest thing is, I am writing this while eating my Heryshay and chase chocolate~~~LOL!! ^o^

cheese, cheese, cheese cake~~~~=)))

2009-12-29T12:57:00.008+08:00

Experience how a housewife's life like yesterday~~~~hahahaha~~~><

Did all the house works in the morning, went to library to read books in the afternoon. I bought an oreo cheesecake for myself while reading. I suddenly felt like to make cheesecake. haha~~~ I noe I am very random~~~LOL!!! Then I remembered tt germ got write a recipe for me, haha!!! I quickly packed my things and shoot to supermarket to buy ingredient~~~=))) Saw Jap curry in the supermarket also, felt like trying, so I bought some veges for the curry too~~~ahhahahaha~~~~XDDD

Ok, after a few hours of preparing, my lovely dinner is ready!!!!XDDDD

Presenting to you my first cheesecake~~~dang1 dang1 dang1 dang4~~~~<333333 href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_lU3pZrapzwI/SzmNv4NgYrI/AAAAAAAABGQ/8kYie4YzO1A/s1600-h/DSCF9960.JPG">

Camwhore with it~~~~hahahaha!!!><

Kiss kiss, Muaks~~~~^o^

Yeah~~~~=DDDDD

Then start eating bah~~~>_@

试吃大会~~huhu~~yummy, yummy!!!!=)))))

Emmm, for the Jap curry, it tasted very nice, but it did not looked very nice, haha~~~ I shall practice some more, then can show off here next time~~~ahhahahahahaha~~~XPPPP

Chipmunks made me miss my doggyssss~~~~~=((((

2009-12-26T12:30:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Alvin and chipmunks 2 yesterday!!! OMG the squirrels sooooo cute!!! Feel like hugging them~~~ahhahahaha!!!XDDDD

The female chipmunks are really hot when they dance, and the way they sing is very cute, even the harmony is soooooo cute!!!!!!<333333

I start to miss my dogs liao, nv hug them for 1 year le~~~5555~~~~=((((

I WANT A PUPPY!!!!!! ROAR~~~~~

Life after As~~~

2009-12-21T13:44:00.006+08:00

Was working for the Popular book fair in the past 10 days. The schedule was quite tight for me cos I still have to teach tuition on Sun morning! Basically the work requires me to work from 10am to 10pm, it was quite tiring, especially on Sun. I have to teach tuition from 9am to 2pm and rush to the book fair to sell E-dictionaries~~~ahhh~~~Tired~~~ I lost my voice and still have to talk to the customers~~~5555~~~ But, the paid was not bad, count all those commision and incentives, I probably earned 2k in tt 10 days~~~hahahaha=))))

Most importantly, I secured many other jobs for the rest of my holiday. Got a company selling children's books ask me to work as a promoter for them. The book is very interesting, it can talk when a special pointer touch it. I may consider this job, haha!!!=)) And also some of my customers ask me to give tuition to their kids, emm, this is interesting also, haha!!!=)))

Shall talk abt the kids in my tuition class, they really make me da4 kai1 yan3 jie4~~~ The p2 boys were talking abt PSP games in class, this was quite shocking, cos I only came across such things when I was in upper sec sch. Ok, I have to convince myself tt I AM OLD and the technology is too advanced in today. Anather random topic in tt class made me totally speechless, my dear little p2 boy was talking abt his GIRL FRIEND!!!! I was totally STUNT!!!! LOL!!! Primary 2 leh, not secondary 2!!!! wowwwww~~~~

Anyway, have to mug from today onwards for the SAT liao, but somehow, I find myself losing my motivations, always find excuses for myself to slack~~~haha~~~LOL!!! Again my house is not a good place to mug, but now I have no right to use the LEP room le, soooo sad!!!=((( Shall go library to mug from tml onwards, but, haix, no one accompany me~~~5555~~~=((( basically nobody is still mugging at this point of time~~~~haix~~~~sianzzzzz~~~~=((((((

bella sera~~~=)))

2009-12-08T09:08:00.008+08:00

Prom was quite fun~~~~=))) So nice to noe so many new friends in the last school event!!! =)))

Everyone was very pretty yesterday!!!haha!!! Took a lot of pics!!!=)))

I dun noe how does the food taste like, cos I almost nv eat anything yesterday. No time to eat lah~~~LOL~~~But it is ok, I was not tt hungry~~~haha!!!XDDD

These were the hairpins on my head, I was shocked when I took them out~~~LOL~~

This is the cue card tt the prom IC made for us~~~soooo nice~~~=)))

This is the prize~~~=)))

And my number tag~~~

Learning is much easier than teaching lor~~~

2009-12-06T16:40:00.004+08:00

Went to my previous tuition centre to teach p2 and p3 chinese today. From 9 am in the morning all the way to 1pm plus, I am dame tired now~~~

Get up at 6am this morning and reach the tuition centre at 8. Quikly run through the lesson plan and start to teach the p2 class at 9. The class is rather small, only got 3 students. Plus there is one on MC, so only left 2 little boys. The one and half hour lesson seems to be very fast for me, I am busy with getting their attention. Two of them are totally opposite, one of them is hyperactive who sidetracks a lot, I have to answer his random questions and pull him back to the lesson~~~LOL! The other one is very quiet, he do all the exercise by himself and refuse to listen, I have to joke with him to make him listen to me and make him to write the strokes of the chinese character in the correct sequence~~~hahahaha~~~ I really hope I have a twin sister lor, then she can help me juggle them~~~LOL!!XPPP Despite the jokes and sidetracks, I actually manage to finish wad I have to finish, only a few exercises left for them to do as homework~~~hahahaha!!! I am dame happy!!! hoho!!! ^o^

Immediately after tt is the p3 lesson. This is the lesson tt concerns me. The class size is small, only got 3 students, but their standards are very different. Two of them taking Chinese as a third language and they dun noe how to speak chinese at all, so I have to teach the whole class in English. Got 1 Korean girl, she is going to be sec2 but she wants to learn chinese from the basic. She can write and understand a bit but she is very weak at reading and speaking, but she is still ok, at least her understanding level is still near the p3 level. Got one Myanmar boy who cannot read if there is no han yu pin ying, cannot understand without English translation. The Chinese passages are still easy to be translated, but the problem is tt his English is not very good also, so I have to use body languages to explain to him. Ahhh~~~ dame tiring!!! LOL!!!XDDD The other boy is a chinese lah, I am supposed to teach him in Chinese, but because of the 2 foreign students, I use English to teach the whole lesson. Ahhhhh~~~~ Furthermore, I only finish explaining the passages in tt one and half hour, there is no time for me to go through the exercises with them, so I just let them do all as homework lor. I am an evil teacher, am I?? ? hahahaha!!! >< Of course cannot like tt lah, must chiong with them the next lesson. I think I will just have seperate consultation with the Myanmar boy lor~~~

Stay back after the lessons and prepare some materials for the next lesson~~~ I just cannot help sleeping on the bus and I continue sleeping after I reach home~~~ahahahaha!!! ><

Haix!!!! Teaching is really not eash ah~~~~ but it is a very good experience lah!!!=)))
Jia you xiao chun!!! You can do it!!!=)))

it is over!!!

2009-12-03T23:17:00.002+08:00

Yes!!! It is finally over!!!!XDDDD

Take a photo of my entry proof~~~

And then, this is the fate of my entry proof!!! hahahahaha!!!! Shuangzzzzz~~~~

Went to caroline's house to play guitar hero and mahjong!!! haha!!! Just realise tt our class ppl are all very interested in Mahjong~~~ hahaha!!! Next time for the "gems", we shall choose a mahjong module, if there is one~~~ hahahaha!!!XDDD

In silence I grieve

2009-11-29T12:48:00.002+08:00

One year have past, I still can remember what happened exactly one year ago in the bloody cold hospital......

First time in my life tt death was so close. From then, I experienced how scary death can be. It took away the life of the person I loved without my permission and it made me cry in a deep despire. Thereafter, I live in anxiety, I am afraid tt it will again take away the lives of people around me and leave me alone in this world.

Started calling grandma very often this year, at least once a week. Everytime after the sunday church section, there would be a strong urge in me to call back. It becomed a habit of me to listen to gradma talking abt how she spent her week. I always think a lot after calling her.

She is very optimistic, I have to admit. She is trying hard to fulfil her day with gatherings with her old friends, watching TV, playing mahjong etc. Everytime I called her, she would talk abt who she met and where she went to play and what show she was watching, and she would tell me not to worry about her, she noes how to plan her life, how to take care of herself etc. She sounded happy and satisfied, but I dun noe whether her words make me reasured or make me even more worried.

I am happy tt she have things to do everyday, but when I visualize the fact tt now she have to walk to the place alone and walk back alone, or attending gatherings alone, I felt sad. It is very hard to adapt lonely life when alr get used to be accompanied. There is no one to talk to when she cannot sleep at night......

I kept thinking whether she is really happy or she said all those just to reasure me. My heart hurts everytime, when I think abt grandpa, she should be the same as me bah......

I could feel tt in this year, her memory and hearings were getting worse and worse, and now I am really scared......

I will go back in Jan next year, just in time to celebrate her birthday with her. I promised grandpa tt I will spend more time with grandma. If the wheather is ok, I will bring her to some other places to travel!

Still, missing my dearest gradpa......

starting to enjoy life after As le~~~~=)))

2009-11-26T23:45:00.004+08:00

Yes Alevel is going to end soon!!!! Only left Bio MCQ liao!!! hahaha!!! Though I felt it tt way after the hard core~~~hahahaha!!!!><

Went to Kbox with Yang lu and Zhou jing straight away after our H3 paper on Wed!!!!hahahaha!!! We were dame high!!! wowo!!! I nv go Kbox for half of a year alr!!!! Ahhhh~~~ ROAR~~~~

Haha! Anyway, I think only 3 of us can accept the songs we sang. Cos we were singing all those very very very old songs!!!!! Like 邓丽君，孟庭韦，童安格's songs, haha!!! Super you3 feel!!!! hahahahaha!!!!=))))

Minus away the irritating durian uncle and the rude boys, it would be a perfect day!!!! Went for shopping with zhou jing after our Kbox section. Both of us spent great deal of money in a shop in Heeren!!! Zhou jing was shocked by the way I shopped. She was the second one, the first one was Lithong. Anyway, both of them shop with me when I nv shop for more than 3 months, so , u noe, must use my savings to exchange some goods lah~~~ hahahaha!!!><

Start hunting for prom dress today (actually is yesterday), haha!!! I am really dame tired of finding dress!!!! Y girls have sooooo many choices, y got soooo many nice dresses and y the prices are also very "nice"~~~~~Ahhhhh~~~~ I am confused, I find myself in a paradox or an irony. It is very troublesome!!!! Nvm, the stamina and patience of girls' become very good when it comes to shopping!!! hahahahaha!!!=))))

Went to eat dinner with my mum's friend, who is also my boss last time! Her son was very cute!!!! He gets more and more handsome everytime I saw him!!! haha!!!=)))) It was really funny today, the little boy kept asking his mum to bring me back home with them!!! hahahaha!!! My mum asked him:"你要养姐姐啊？" Guess wad, he said yes leh!!! LOL!!! hahahaha!!! Then he was saying tt he will buy a house for his mum, another one for my mum and another one for me~~~ahhahahaha!!! Then my mum started to suan me, cos she recalled tt I said sth similar when I was young!!! haha!!! KK!!! I will remember tt!!! Have to work hard for houses!!! Yes start early!!!=))))

I think the little boy got the camara-shy problem!!! LOL!!! ><

One last break b4 As~~~

2009-09-29T20:16:00.001+08:00

Prelim is finally over, just had a 2-hour sleep in the afternoon, it is a luxury for me at this point of time~~~ hahahaha~~~ However, I am still in the state of half awake~~~LOL!!!

The real battle will start tml, it will not be a good start cos I am going to get back my GP~~~ Ahhhh!!!!! But nvm, no pain no gain mah!!! Jia you!!!!=)))

Btw, went for medical check up today, how should I say, I almost fainted there lah~~~

Basically, I wanted to noe whether my stomach got any problems or not, cos I dun feel like eating during the exam period. This was nth big, but the doctor suggested me to do like more than 6 blood testings lah, even including kidney functions, liver functions etc??? And the doctor keep showing off his chinese and talk non sense to me instead of asking wad is wrong with me!!!!

I asked the doctor, only need to draw the blood once right? He said yes and he took out 3 test tubes and 1 ultra big syringe, I was shocked, scared and amazed, but alr agree to do the blood tests, just let the doctor draw blood from me lor, I just close one eye lah. Who noes it was more amazing after tt. I could feel the needle being injected into my arm, the pain was ok if I dun face it. I was waiting and waiting for the doctor to get it done, but it took very long for him to finish, so I turned around to see how was the progress.

Guess wad I saw, the doctor pulled the syringe all the way to the end alr, but there was only 1/3 volume of blood and a lot of bubbles. And wad happened next make me want to faint. The doctor pushed and then pulled the syringe one more time to draw more blood, but it did not work. I was shocked. Did he try to kill me by injecting air into my vein???!!!

Finally the needle was removed and I felt relieved. Well , I was wrong. The doctor transfer 2/3 of the blood to one of the test tube and the rest to another one. He said tt the blood was not enough, need to draw one more time. I had a strong feeling of being cheated.

Luckily, the doctor finally give up, he directed me to another female doctor. I looked calmed but was celebrating inside, ahhahahaha!!! The female doctor checked my blood pressure, heart beats etc. And tt was when I realised I was there for medical check up. But finally still need to draw blood again. The doctor throw away the half filled second test tube and took out a new one. This means she is going to draw blood for two test tubes this time. Ahhh~~~~I really hope I won't faint half way through the drawing of blood lor.

This time was actually quite ok, the syringe was much smaller and the doctor looked much more professional. I turned around again and when I turned back, the doctor was alr done with the blood drawing, there was no bubble in the syringe and the volume was enough for the two test tubes.

The check up was considered as done, and the bill was also amazing but I dun have energy to care abt it alr, still pity the 2 syringe of blood tt I have lost. Went to eat red bean dessert immediately after tt, hope i can produce enough blood cells to replace the blood lost bah. 5555~~~=(((

Shall off to sleep alr, very tired~~~

Some thoughts~~~

2009-09-25T14:34:00.003+08:00

I cannot help thinking abt a lot of things when I was mugging recently, maybe tt is why my mugging sections are not very effective.

Dun noe y, a lot of little things can make me think a lot!

Mum was telling a news she read recently. A girl from XX university commit suicide because she realise tt life is meaningless. Mum was saying tt this was so absurd, how come all the young ppl have this kind of mentality.

I did not say anything, but inside me, there are a lot of voices. Was studying Existentialism in chinese lit recently, I was highly convinced by the ideology. It is true in some sense tt life is meaningless cos there will not have any form of evidence of our existence after we died.

Life is full of estrangment, cos no one can really understand us as they are not us. Life is also full of nothingness and anxiety, and tt is the feeling when estrangment come into our life. In conclusion, life is full of absurdity. Every existing thing is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness and dies by chance.

These theories are logical and they make sense, but tt does not mean we can just give up our lives. Yes our existence is meaningless cos ultimately we will become ash and diappeared in the world. However, living is not just abt ourselves, it is more of a form of responsibility to the ppl we love and the ppl love us. Tt is y i dun believe tt living for ourselves can make us enjoy life more. When we were young, we study hard in order to persue our own dreams. When we grow up, we work hard cos tt is sth we find meaningful or interesting. But have we ever think abt wad gives us the motivation? It is not our dreams or the works, it is the responsibility inside ourselves tt motivate us and enable us to survive any difficult situations. We study hard, cos we dun want to upset our parents and we work hard, cos we want to give the next generation the best. They are the ppl we love and love us, so it is a kind of responsibility to continue living for them.

These philosophical thinkings are recondite, but wad confuse me most is religious staff. The Existentialism thinks tt there isn't any almighty powers in this world, but i deeply believe tt there is sth higher than human. I am not really a free thinker but I dun really have a religion. I know the ideology of more than 2 religions as a form of knowledge and sometimes just cannot help believing in them, so there are more than 2 religion ideologies inside my mind and I keep thinking abt them. There are definitely similarities of them and there are also differences, and tt is time I am confused. I am not thinking abt which one is correct which one is wrong, but I am thinking why there are such differences.

Tt are just some random thoughts of mine. I noe I should not think too much at this pt of time, but sometimes my mind is just out of control. Maybe we dun need an absolute answer for everything so there is no need to think too much bah~~~~~~

Study hard and pls CONCENTRATE!!!!

My 19th, in the midst of mugging~~~

2009-09-06T17:40:00.006+08:00

The post is just for future reference~~~

This is how I look like when I am 19~~~ a full time mugger~~~

And this is my life when I am 19~~~totally no life~~~

Things to be taken by my brain b4 As~~~

Being shocked by the amount of work everyday~~~

And feel like mental blocked everytime I see these~~~

Sometimes, I just wanna surrender my soul~~~

And sometimes, I just died the half way~~~

Then SCREAM~~~

Then, I am in a deep thought and self reflection~~~

At last, MUG MUG MUG!!!!!!! Ahhhh~~~~~~~~~

Nevertheless, thank you, my dear friends for ur birthday wishes! We must jia you together ho!!! =)))

A few more months left!!! Ah jia ah jia fighting!!! Chiong ah!!!!!!!XDDD

As usual, song of the day, for myself!=)

☆祝我生日快乐☆

温岚

我知道伤心不能改变什么

那么让我诚实一点

诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄

只有关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空的包厢里面

手机让它休息一夜

难像切歌切掉回忆的画面

眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐我对自己说

蜡烛点了寂寞亮了

生日快乐泪也融了

我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你带一点恨

还要时间才能平衡

热恋伤痕幻灭重生

祝我生日快乐

Ps: I suddenly realise tt 19 th is actually a very important birthday, cos after tt I will not be addressed as teens alr~~~saddd~~~consider as old ppl liao~~~5555~~~~TOT!!!

写给自己的话

2009-07-17T20:28:00.002+08:00

最近很迷茫, 就这样浑浑噩噩的过了第三学期的好几个礼拜. 头脑一直没有空闲过, 除了学习, 考试, 想得最多的还是关于未来的事......

听了很多有关大学奖学金的讲座, 也了解到很多就业方面的讯息, 越是听的多就越觉得资讯不够, 越是努力的寻找资料就越是想很多, 越是想很多就越是心烦, 不知道该怎样在两个梦想间取舍......

有时我会想, 如果我没有那么贪心, 只是拥有一个梦想, 那就不会像现在这样心烦了. 其实, 我本来也只有一个梦想, 而且是一直以来坚持的梦想, 我一直在为这个梦想努力, 可是现在, 我害怕了, 我害怕我不够好, 害怕实现不了这个梦想, 害怕等到实现了才发现我不适合这个梦想. 于是我有了第二个梦想, 这个梦想貌似是第一个梦想的替代品, 可是实际上不是. 我在追求第一个梦想的路上无意间发现了第二个梦想, 它在我心中的地位远远超过了一个代替品的价值, 成了我另一个想完成的梦.

曾经, 我为拥有两个梦想而感到高兴, 甚至计划了在哪个年龄段实现哪个梦想. 第一个梦想是没有白天黑夜的, 所以我打算在年轻的时候去闯闯, 到时候不管功成名就还是一败涂地都毫不留念的退出, 去继续第二个, 相对来说比较规律和稳定的梦想, 直到年老力衰的时候. 虽然第二个梦想也不轻松, 或许只是换个方式承受压力和劳累, 但是我知道我需要这样的改变, 因为我是一个不会累死但是会闷死的人.

而现在我知道我只能选择其中一个梦想然后以此自终, 心里是郁闷的也是矛盾的, 已经画好的蓝图被打碎, 但仍然贪心的在打听有没有鱼和熊掌兼得的办法.

下午跟老师谈了好一会儿有关以后的事, 又想了许多. 可能现在的我真的需要专一的朝着一个目标前进, 选择一个可以跨向两个梦想的跳板, 然后走一步是一步, 如果有一天不想再继续第一个梦想, 就回到跳板重新开始第二个梦想. 只是这个跳板还需要好好研究......

老师说就算只能实现一个梦想也没有必要烦恼, 因为没有一个人生是完美, 是一切符合你的意愿的. 仔细想想, 其实不然, 社会不是为我而存在, 所以没有必要为了实现我的梦想而去更改一些东西, 但我是为了社会而存在的, 所以我需要为此改变. 而这并不是说我会为了社会而彻底放弃我的梦想, 我会去争取, 就算大部份人都说不可能, 我还是会向着未发表言论的那一小部份人, 直到我真的意识到什么, 然后再带着一丝希望放弃, 或许在以后的一个不经意的机会里, 我可以把那希望再燃烧成当初的梦想.

其实想了这么多却一直没有想到的是酬劳方面的事, 最近在咨询就业方面的事的时候不免有听到很多人问薪酬的多少, 如果是以前那个还在幻想完美人格的我会觉得他们好势力, 竟然以金钱作为选择的条件, 但现在我会觉得他们好成熟, 比我成熟好多, 他们考虑的问题都是很实际的. 我不是一个视金钱为粪土的人, 只是现在我还不想去想那么复杂的问题, 可能我还徘徊在幻想世界和现实世界间那个半生不熟的阶段吧~~

在某种程度上, 我承认我是一个悲观主义者, 幻想主义者加上敏感主义者, 但唯一乐观的是我不会让自己堕落, 总会有那么一点免疫功能可以让快要颓废的我找到一种自我安慰, 然后再表现出充满希望的一面. 虽然知道希望越大失望也越大, 但心里总会存在着一些希望, 不管是对成绩还是其它的种种种种......

但现在我需要提醒自己, 希望是自己给的, 和还没有实现的诺言是一个道理, 你可以选择相信但不能完全相信, 因为没有预料没有防备的幻灭是伤害你最深的.

关于以后就先这样吧, 现在就努力学吧, 不管什么梦想终究还是要靠成绩~~~

update~~~

2009-06-24T20:35:00.002+08:00

My blog is dead and I am even more dead than my blog~~~~~~

Life for me recently was not tt exciting lah, everyday mugging in the LEP room with a few of others~~~ Playing spider solitaire becomed my only entertainment, maybe plus the part of niaoing Lv Huan or being niaoed by Lv Huan bah!! haha!! She is really very entertaining haha!!! LOL!!~~~Ai~~~sianzzzz!!!

I felt very unprepared for this block test, anyway, isn't it how I felt for every test in JC?!! Ai~~~there are too many things to study lah!!! Ahhh~~~~

Nvm, btw, I was listening to some of 金海星's songs recently, I am not really a fan of her but I had attended a concert of her a few years ago, not her own concert lah, there were still some other singers like 周杰伦, 刘若英,古天乐, 邰正宵. 张镐哲 etc. I dun really noe her very much at tt time, but I can still remember some of the songs she sang. Picked up some of her songs coincidentally, now I have new feelings for her songs! =)))

I like the feeling when the sad lyrics and the not so sad music mix with her sweet but full of sorrowfulness voice. This perfectly matched with the style of <茶馆>, 在黑暗之中给人留下一丝可寻的希望~~~but where is my hope~~555~~~ Emmm, this is totally random, hahaha, too much CLL liao~~~haha~~

Anyway, share this song called 悲伤的秋千, go and listen to the full song, u will get wad i mean!!! It is very nice!!!=))))

Sian, 4 more days to blocks, everyone jia you bah!!!!=DDD

mrs foo is crazy but i like her~hahahaha~><

2009-06-08T20:53:00.003+08:00

Had 3 hours of bio today~~~

Well, I must say Mrs Foo is crazy, mad and most importantly IMBA~~~LOL~~~ I was enlightened by her revision lecture today~~~OMG i like her~~~hahahaha~~~woohoo~~~ XDDD

It was the first time tt i did not feel tired and confused after hours of lecture and i actually required for 1 more hour of bio consult with Mr kairul after tt~~~wahahaha~~~crazy lah, anyway i nv say i am NORMAL wad?~~~ muhahahaha~~~~ XDDDD

Through out the 3 hours of lecture today i nv ask for any pills or sweets tt i normally take in during lectures to keep me awake. The concepts of the DNA related topics become very structured and clear after the lecture, I just need to memorise those i havn't memorised can liao~~~ hahahaha~~~ bright future~~~muhahaha!!!!

Finally not feeling sooooooooooooo lost in bio liao ~~~haha~~~ Mrs Foo rocks!!!! HAHAHAHA~~~XDDDD

Btw, Mrs Foo is aiming for 100% A for this year's Bio Alevel for the whole bio cohort...... @_@
And Mr Kairul seems to have the same aim for our class tt is why we had our Bio "A club" remedials last week~~~ XPPPP
Ahhhh~~~I try my best lah~~~ahhhh~~~~ Jia you xiao chun!!! =))))

I love H3 make up lesson~~~

2009-06-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

Had H3 make up lesson this afternoon, well, it was rather fun as well as funny~~~ muhahahaha!!!

During the 论语 lesson, I was happily arguing with lin lao shi abt the hidden meaning of 孔子's sayings~~~ I was tring to explain one of the sayings with the love stories in 金庸's 雪山飞狐, lin lao shi had no words to me liao, he just stopped me with one line " There is no love concept in Confucianism!!!!" Well, this was powerful enough to keep my mouth shut!!! hahahahaha!!! LOL~~~

Had our pizza treat after the lesson, this lighted up my whole afternoon~~~ woohoo~~~ I love my H3 make up lesson!!!!! <3333

Anyway, I went to cut my fringe today. I just dun like the feeling when my fringe gets long enough to cover my eyes and it irritates me quite a lot when it sticks to my forhead when i am exercising~~~ahhhh~~~ Nvm, now it is ok liao, at least there isn't anything tt blocks mine not so good eyesight. hahahaha!!! But, I am having a post-hair-cut syndrom now, basically, I dun feel like looking at the mirror or anything reflective~~~hahahaha~~

crazy crazy crazy~~~

2009-06-02T19:52:00.002+08:00

Today is such a horrible day, had 2 hours(9-11) of bio in the morning and 5 hours(1-6) of CLL in the afternoon~~~

A lot of cll ppl from other classes could not take it half way through the lecture, but my class was imba de lor, we kept arguing with teachers and got more and more high through the lecture~~~LOL~~ When everybody had no energy to make any noise, zhou jing, yang lu and me were still laughing out loudly and made fun of each other~~~hahahaha!!!

On the way to the bus stop, we were kept singing Jolin's 妥协, and we modified the lyrics in our own forms, such as 拖鞋，脱鞋 etc...... Dun noe why, recently we kept singing this song and everytime we changed the lyrics according to our modes, LOL~~ crazy lor~~

While we were singing and walking at the same time, Zhou Jing suddenly shouted "Aiya, must well go Kbox and sing lah!" Me and yang lu were like "NOW?!!!" LOL~~~ Crazy lah, this period of time would be very ex leh. By taking in consideration of our current economic states, we controlled our urge of going Kbox~~~

If no such external facors, I guess 3 of us would be in KBOX NOW~~~ muhahahaha~~~

I still dame High now, hoho~~~ Jump jump jump around~~~~ muhahahaha~~~XDDDD

harmoc concert~~~

2009-06-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

Went to watch harmoc concert today~~~

It was quite nice, the songs they choose were all quite familiar to me, a handful of them were chinese pop songs, sooooo a lot feelings~~haha~~

While the harmoc ppl having their concert on the stage, me and zhou jing had our mini concert at our seats! LOL!! Haha, we just could not help singing along with the familiar tune.

Music is really a universal language, a lot of non-chinese songs they played, me and zhou jing could find the chinese version~~~hahahaha~~~ like 梁静茹's 小手拉大手，张信哲's 从开始到现在，and the Disney cartoon 风中奇缘（Pocahontas）'s theme song 风之彩（colours of wind) by 辛晓琪......

Well done my harmonica friends, I enjoyed the concert very much~~~=)))

Hug the nature~~~=)))

2009-05-30T21:13:00.008+08:00

Went to support Yokie and Shi Qi for some award ceremony in Republic Poly with Yang lu and Zhou jing. The ceremony starts at 4:30, but we reach at 2:30~~~ Dame enthu and supportive lah~~~ muhahahaha!!! XPPP

Zhou jing suggested to go walk around the park beside RP, so 3 of us started our journy back to the nature!!! Woohoo~~~ I must say it was really pleasant to hide inside the forest in such a hot and sunny day, however, nth is perfect, we gonna kissed by the mosquitoes~~~~5555~~~=///

Here are the photos!!! =)))

Me and Yang Lu, under the HOT sun~~~

me, lu and jing~~~<333>

Beautiful pond~~~~=)))

Life is a road tt I wanna keep going~~~=))

Drama time~~~XDDD

The bridge~~~

路～～～希望在拐角～～～＝）））

Some random fruit on the tree~~~ I guess it was the one tt the snow white ate~~~LOL!!! XDDD

LOL!!! Funny de lor~~~

With Yokie and Shi Qi!! It was actually the 2nd time for 3 of us to attend their award ceremony, the first time was in last year. Can see the scale become larger and larger. Met Qinni, Angeline, Chee Yang and some other gefang members there, really long time no see liao, soooo sad never take pic with qinni they all~~~=(((

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On the way back to Woolands MRT~~~

Having fun in the MRT station~~~LOL!!! hahahaha!!! XPPPP

I <3 TKD!!! =)))

2009-05-30T00:05:00.008+08:00

Very happy tt TKD won the overall champion of the inter JC poomsae competition!!! WOOHOO~~~

Made the morning announcement this morning, I must say tt the world is really very ingenious, I remember last year I was the one laughing at the ppl on the bridge, shouting out "hwa chong" randomly. But today, I am the one standing on the bridge with other tkd members, shouting out loud with proud!!! =))

Celebrated this great achievement in school today. It was quite fun!! haha!!! Dun noe who start to pronounce TKD in an Indian accent, everybody kept shouting taekwon~do~ take pho~to~ again and again. LOL!!! sooo funny!!! haha!!!

I will surely miss the time when we stayed back in tian tai and practice our patterns again and agian, the time when we cheered for each other from the bottom of our hearts and the time when we chill out with each other......

Just felt a bit sad for myself tt all the events are going to over soon, and I am going to be a full time mugger~~~haix~~~

some photos here~~~

Public performance at esplanade!!! =)))

This is my coach/senior who is supper cute+IMBA~~~

Yayyy, TKD girls!!!

Act emo~~~

Act mugger~~~ LOL

Writing message for Celest~~~=)))

Eejang female indivs~~~<333

I was showing the juniors the video of their pattern, I realised I looked like a teacher~~~hoho!!! At least got protential~~~LOL!!! muhahahaha!!!XDDDD

Yayy, my semi-final pattern~~~

Champion camwhoring~~~

We are cool pplzzz~~~=)))

Our future, our hopes~~~ Jia you juniors!!! =)))

Yayyy~~~ Champion~~

Eejang FTW~~~

Imba split~~~@_@

Random~~~

2009-05-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

张老师：爱一个人和爱一件物之间有什么区别？

学生甲：～～～～～～～
学生乙：．．．．．．．
学生丙：＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
学生丁：&*)^(*)%^#@&)

张老师：爱一个人是会受伤的......

学生甲：@_@
学生乙：@_@
学生丙：@_@
学生丁：@_@

噢～～～

张老师：尽管如此，再多的伤害，还是应该去爱，因为失去爱我们就会一点点慢慢的死掉......

恩～～～

dance night

2009-05-23T00:32:00.002+08:00

Just finish watching dance night 09---back again~~~

This year the chinese dances were really impressive, they really express the emotion of the poem fully and it was soooo touching~~~~

The MAD alumni item was very nice also, haha, dun noe since when, ppl like to act nerd very much~~~hahahaha!! LOL!!!

Went for supper with my juniors, I must say tt our juniors are really funny~~~ hahahaha~~~~

牡丹亭中人～～～a peony paviliAn

2009-05-19T20:17:00.004+08:00

Watched a video on how the amazing kun opera show---Peony Pavilion is produced......

I was deeply touched by these amazing and passionate ppl. The show was not just abt the beautiful love story, it was abt a hope of everyone involved in it, tt the traditional culture can be appreciated by its own ppl as well as other ppl, just like how the western musicals were.

I am so in love the show!!!! Love the show as well as the spirit!!! =)))

Once a peony paviliAn, whole life a peony paviliAn~~~ <33333

　

this week~~~^^

2009-05-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

The whole of this week was in the mode of Peony pavilion!! LOL!!! Me and Zhou jing were talking in kun opera all the time!! hahahaha!!! Crazy!!!! XDDD Ren lao shi said tt he will show us the sidelights soon. Yeah!!! Look forward to it!!! =))))

Had our Cha Guan drama performance on thurs, our class was seriously funny, we really changed Cha Guan into a musical!!!LOL!!! Well done 72!!! =))) And we won the prize we aimed for--- The most creative drama!!! hahahahaha!!! The prize is 20 dollars island creamery voucher!!! We went to the island creamery to eat yesterday, it was dameeee nice!!! ^^

Went back for Chem skill A today, it was ok!! But~~~ the 2-hour bio lecture after tt was not ok at all, I was really very sleepy, and 2 hours of bio could really kill me~~~

Ahhhh~~~ shall go and sleep liao~~~ZZZZZ

peony pavilion

2009-05-11T20:12:00.005+08:00

I am still in the obsession with the story, it goes on and on in my head and it just too beautiful to be described in words......

Chinese opera was the form of art tt I could not appreciate last time, but now I have new feeling abt it. I think Bai Xian Yong is a very good script writer, he edicted the show into such a interesting form, which made ppl have no interest in opera, like me, deeply attracted to the show~~~

The story takes 3 nights of 9 hours to finish，it is in the form of Kun Opera which I dun think is appealing to me b4 I watch it. Every thing was so pretty in tt show, the music played by a live chinese orchestra band was so emotional; the singing of the actors were so matched with the mode of the characters and the chinese script was so implicit tt I have to look at the english subtitles to get the exact meaning. I think that is the fascination of chinese bah, always seems mysterious to ppl.

I shall write this in chinese le:

整个故事可以用＂唯美＂两字来概括，杜丽娘和柳梦梅的爱情一直都很虚幻，单纯到让人无法不为之折服，但爱情不就是在虚拟的情况下才最美吗？

情窦初开的杜丽娘游园时，在花园中睡着了，梦见一个拿着柳枝的书生要她题诗．＂近者分明似俨然,远观自在若飞仙。他年得傍蟾宫客,不在梅边在柳边。＂

喜欢那句“不在梅边在柳边”，杜丽娘要等的人不在梅边在柳边，可她怎么知道在这个世上就真的有一个叫柳梦梅的人呢．杜丽娘为了着个出现在它梦里的人而朝思暮想，不是一天两天，而是三年．杜丽娘等了三年，伤了三年也病了三年，最终还是红颜薄命，没有等到梦中人的来到就含泪辞世．

然而她离奇的死因让阴曹地府的判官也不忍扣留她，于是她得以还魂于世，去寻找那个让她相思而死却又素昧平生的人．．．．．．

故事的另一端也一样离奇，男主人翁柳梦梅在上京应试的时候无意间路过杜丽娘的坟墓，又在无意间拾到杜丽娘的自画像和那首题在画像旁的诗．他为了这画中人寤寐思服．而就在这时，杜丽娘的鬼魂找到了他，两人一见如故，开始了一段人鬼情未了．而后，柳梦梅掘坟，让杜丽娘重生，两个人也有情人终成眷属，故事也因此告终．

＂但使相思莫相负，牡丹亭上三生路。＂杜丽娘和柳梦梅各自经历过一段刻骨铭心的相思，值得高兴的是最终他们没有相负，圆满的在一起，一生一世，生生世世都不会分开了．．．．．．

＂情不知所起，一往而深，生者可以死，死者可以生．＂两个爱得很不可思议的人又在不可思议的情况下在一起，可能真的有命中注定那回事吧！

可能我们都需要相信，某些人的命运之间暗自有着奇妙的呼应和重合。虽然相隔万里，在各自的生活轨道上行进着，冥冥中却息息相连，他们处境相似，心境相通。一旦相遇了，就会像齿轮一样紧紧咬合在一起．．．．．．

Share a song from Wong Lee Hong here, it is called 在梅边，it was talking abt the Peony Pavilion. I understand it better now. I somehow agree with the lyrics writer tt compare to the love of ppl in the show, the love of ppl in this modern world seems very frivolous～～～

在梅边
王力宏

这厢是梦梅恋上画中的仙
那厢是丽娘为爱消香殒碎
为了爱不吃不喝不睡
但穿过千年爱情不再流行生死相恋
爱是什么什么是爱
接近以后就电
喜欢以后就追
腻了以后就飞
但亲爱我为你狂我为你变
就让我爱你爱的很深很远很古典
春水望断夏花宿妆残
谁闻秋蝉谁知冬来
冷秋千笑声似犹在
剪不断思念欲理还乱
前缘等待再续后爱
梦梅丽娘还魂归来
岁月摧残发白
就叫我白了头铁了心去等去爱
在梅边落花似雪纷纷绵绵谁人怜
在柳边风吹悬念生生死死随人愿
千年的等待滋味酸酸楚楚两人怨
牡丹亭上我眷恋日日年年未停歇
不停歇不恨不怪不怨尤谁
只等待牡丹开成灿烂的天
让传奇永远被人看见
让红尘世人能够感动能够深深了解
爱是什么爱并不是
就让这隽永传说为你重演
(昆曲)他年得傍蟾宫客
不在梅边在柳边
他年得傍蟾宫客
在梅边不知爱何时出现
在现实生活还是只能在梦里面
牡丹亭描述的浪漫不可思议
尤其是对我们这种新新人类
尤其是对我们生活太忙乱
没有时间吃饭
上网到眼睛酸
科技发达好有效率
而生活的节奏比明朝的快速一万倍
怎样才能够满足
小朋友哪有时间坐在那里看牡丹亭
花十九个小时唱到所有观众老了
作火车地铁飞机高速公路又在堵车
聪明的人知道时间就是钱要把握
失控之前要喘一口气
汤显祖让我向你学习
这么梦幻没人比你浪漫
四百年的流传我只能说赞
我的世界一切越来越方便
但奇怪还是没有办法找到一种爱
我不要跟你们赛跑
因为我知道生命是个礼物不希望这一辈子
没有爱而马不停蹄好想掉进那故事里
步骤慢点儿气氛神秘柳梦梅的美梦里
汤大师带我们回去充满爱的牡丹亭

Photo montage here:
白先勇！！！lucky zhou jing and ren qi~~~ ahhhhh~~~~

this is day 2

Explanade at night!!!^^

Btw, tml is the 1 year anniversary of the 5.12 earthquake. Let us pray together at 2:28pm tml, in the memory of the victims in the earthquake~~~
Sze Chuan FTW!!!! <33333

update update!!!!

2009-05-10T10:48:00.002+08:00

Long time never blog liao~~~~

I am seriously busy, but seemed like i did not do many stuff recently also. There are still huge amt of hwks accumulating on my lists and I still have not polish up my tkd pattern!! Ahhhh~~~~

Found tt reading room is a good place to study, I think i could be more focusing on my work when I studied in the reading room!!! =)))

Btw, got free ticket to watch the Peony Pavilion in Explanade. Omg it totally rocks my weekend!!! It takes 3 consecutive nights, every night 8 to 11, but it totally worth it. Today will be the last night, I am very excited abt it!!! Shall blog abt it after today!!!^^

happy bday zhou jing!!!!

2009-04-25T22:33:00.014+08:00

Today is zhou jing's 18th birthday, a big happy birthday to my fellow sister!!! <333

Went out to celebrate in the afternoon after my TKD training. I must say it was really a relax afternoon.

Went to the asian kitchen to eat, the food was really nice!!! =)))

We were too hungry liao, forgot to take pics b4 eating, so only left one sample there. LOL!!!XDDD

And here are our main courses!!! =)))

Went to GV Marina to watch movie after tt. Zhou jing u better remember tt u owe me a very very big favour, my first time of watching horror movie in the cinema is delicated to u!!!!! Talking abt the movie we watched, it was called Friday the 13th, it was very good ah, it made me decide tt i will never ever watch horror movie in the cinema again!!!!

3 of us were hugged together through out the movie, a lot of scenes were boody and disgusting. I screamed a few times and the worst thing is I dun even noe i am screaming, so I cannot control myself~~~ Felt very embarrassed after tt, I really had the feeling of hiding under the chair lor~~~=XXXX

This was taken just b4 the movie, nv take the unglam pics of us after the movie~~LOL

Zhou jing decided to pierce her ears today, so two of us accompany her. We were willing to offer our hand to her, but she said tt she DUN NEED!!!! Two of us were shocked~~~hahahaha

She was persuading two of us to pierce our ears also, but two of us are such good girls, hahahahaha!!!Anyway, the truth is we dun dare lah, satisfied with the giap ones, muhahahaha!!!XDDD

Went to visit singapore flyer after tt, it was really beautiful!!!=)))

From far~~~

Nearer

Just underneath

There was an area beside the reservoir where ppl can rest there, we settled there and started to look at the flyer.

This is meant to show the contrust, some ppl is having a deep thought there and some pig is happily eaching there~~~LOL!! XDDDD

It was really enjoyable to watch the water flow away there, normal ppl should be quite calm there, but i was NOT!!! Thanks to the horro movie lah, I was still in the state of being horrified!!!

After a while, we started our 3 ppl's concert there, and our only audience was the reservoir~~~

Music made us become more and more hyper, then we started to do all those stupid staff~~~LOL~~XDDD

This place is wonderful, I will surely visit it again!!!=)))

Busy life~~~

2009-04-24T22:16:00.003+08:00

TKD training is going to be more and more hiong. Just heard from one of the senior tt this time the competition is national one, this gives me more motivation to train myself harder. I am not tt ambitious to clinch the gold metal lah, but at least I hope tt I could come back with sth lah~~~ Jia You!!! =DDD

Tml is zhou jing's birthday!! 3 of us are going out to celebrate in the afternoon!! haha!!! XDDD

However, there is training in the morning~~~5555=(((, still have to reach sch by 8 am, ahhhh~~~ My valuable sleeping time ah~~~

Nevertheless, I <3 TKD!!! =DDDD

ps, rencently there are a lot of tutorials accumulated~~~ ai~~~ Jia you bah!!! =))

TKD FTW~~~

2009-04-17T19:41:00.002+08:00

TKD season is coming!!! Ahhh~~~I was selected to join the individual category of the pattern competition. My no life trainning is going to start from next week; except thurs, the rest of the week days will be occupied by trainning sections!!! 5555~~~ Nvm, I will survive de!!hahahaha!!=))

Learnt the pattern this wed, it was much difficult than the pattern tt I practiced for my grading. haha, of course lah, this new pattern is for the green tip one leh, which is like 1 belt higher than my current level, but it is ok, I can master it de!!! muhahahaha!!!=)))

Ah Jia Ah Jia Fighting!!! XDDDD

abt life~~~

2009-04-13T16:17:00.002+08:00

I am calm now, so I am going to write things tt I have experienced abt life......

Sometimes, life can be expected, but we, the tiny individuals can do nothing to upturn the situation~~~

Mum called me just now, she told me tt my great grandmother passed away this morning. I was calm when I hear abt it and continued to ask my mum abt the funeral affairs. Hung up the phone, there was 1 min of blank for me. I thought I should be strong enough to face this kind of thing as it is not the first time alr, but, actually I am not. There is nothing I can do except praying, it is then my tears start dropping out, only at this moment I can really cry like a child without hiding anything~~~

Actually, my great grandma was hospitalized around 10 days ago, the doctors said tt there was no way tt they could save her. My family was alr mentally prepared by then, but there was really no thing we could do to make her feel better, except watching her lying on the bed, she could not talk, could not feel, could not even eat anything~~~

It was a kind of suffering to see ur loved ones being tortured by Death in their last momment of life......

Another person who played a part in my childhood left me, it is sad but the beautiful memories tt my great grandma gave me is still here with me and those were the things tt make me cry when I think abt her, who is now up there watching over me......

I shall write down these in memory of my great grandma;
Great grandma had a bad hearing since I was young, so everytime when I need to greet her, I had to come very close to her, talked in a whispering pose but with a shouting volume.

May be because I am the youngest child in the family, great grandma was always biased towords me. She made my cousin to check my hwk for me and always asked him to teach me the questions tt I did not know how to do. And there would always be nicely peeled freash fruit or hand-peeled nuts such as walnuts, peanuts, sun flower seeds etc on my table when I was doing my hwk. Basically I just need to use a spoon to transport wadever there on the plate directly into my mouth......

But now, no more this kind of biasness, there left fewer ppl tt bother to nagging beside me~~~

May be life is always abt gain and loss, and we can never balance them bah~~~~~~

YAYY PW~~~

2009-04-09T17:15:00.005+08:00

Was very nervous when we were abt to get back our PW results, heard from the announcement tt we did not do as well as our seniors, there is only 84％As in our cohort. I was very scared, I thought I am the minority......

But, I am actually not~~~ wohoo!!!! =DDDD

Anyway, was celebrating birthdays for the April babies this afternoon. Wow, there were really a lot of April babies in our class, abt 6 of them leh, and 3 of them were born on the same day. haha!!! We bought 2 cakes for them lah, but tt wad not the main pt. I dun noe who came out with this idea lah, there was this birthday card and 2 lipsticks (1 for guys and 1 for girls) being passed around, we were supposed to apply the super bright lipstick onto our lips and kiss the card and sign~~~ wowoo~~~LOL!!!

Here is how the card looks like, it is such an artistic piece of work~~~ LOL!!

This was really hillarious. Another happy thing for this week was tt all 4 of our juniors who was running for council got in. haha!!! Proud of them!!!=)))

Ok, there was also a very bad news this week, the taiwaness singer, Ah Sang passed away because of breast cancer. I was really shocked when I saw the news on Tue. From my impression, she looked very sporty and healthy, but dun noe y she passed away so sudden~~~ai~~~

I liked her songs a lot, her voice was really special and her songs could always bring back a lot of emotional memories of ppl. I still remember there was one song called 叶子, it was actually the first song tt made me cry~~~

No more this kind of voice can be heard liao, wad the pity~~~=(((

Music is my pain killer~~~

2009-04-03T23:57:00.003+08:00

Was really low this morning, I nv cry for my result, today is not an exception, but I almost lah, it is really depressing, demoralizing and disappointing to get this kind of result after putting in effort. I am not expecting a great jump of my grade, but I do expect to see some improvement, sadly, reality did not show me tt.

The tears came out of my eyes quite a lot of times when I was sitting in the classroom, but I rubbed it away or just simply looked up. Actually, I want to cry, i want to admit tt i am not talented in this subject, I want to break my record of not crying over wadever lousy results and I want to tell myself tt I do care abt my grade. Somehow, I managed to suck the rears back, and tried to laugh with the class without knowing wad they are laughing. Maybe, I was just trying to keep tt little bit of self respect infront of myself!!! Stupid me!!!

This gave me a bad mood for the whole day, I was like a walking corpse without a soul, rushing from one lesson to another. Neglacted all the happy staffs happening around me......

Had my tkd trainning at abt 5pm, it was really an good way to vent my anger, I won't regret of joining tkd lah, I just keep kicking, punching and shouting, felt a lot better after tt~~~

Then at night, was the Lumos Concert. The bands were dame imba lah, they seriously rocked my night, I am super high now. When my heart beat with the drum beat, it was really joyful. Music can cure wadever wound of mine, but sometimes it can also cut open my scars~~~

Wadever lah, just had supper with my super cuteeee juniors in KAP, they are seriously funny and they are all nice pplzzzz!!! haha!!! 72 rocks!!! <3333 Looking forward to JTS/STJ which takes forever to come~~~ LOL!!!

Btw, I am going for my tkd grading this sun morning to get my yellow tip!!! Wohoo!!! Shall practice at home tml!!! hahahaha!!! XDDD

Super High~~~~

2009-03-29T00:24:00.003+08:00

Today is such a busy day, but it is busy of playing!!! Muhahaha!!!XDDD

The schedule today for yanglu zhoujing and me is dame tight. We travel around singapore today to attend 3 events! LOL!!! Tt sounds like some celebrities who have tong1 gao4 to rush to!!! haha!! XDD

Firstly, 3 of us live in the west, we meet at the south to sing K in the morning. We were seriously dame high, the Kbox section was planned long time ago when we were panicing for our blocks, 3 of us felt the need to have some form of abstraction after blocks, and finally today is the day!!! haha!! we were jumping on the sofa through out the 4 hours of singing section, haha!!! Dame shuang3 ah!!! =DDDD

Secondly, after our Kbox section, we rushed down to Pasir ris park for our CLL barbecue section. All the ppl there only wore Tshirts and shorts, 3 of us felt dame out cos we were quite formaly dressed lah!!! Nvm, we were always the over dressed ones!!! LOL!! Did not stay very long also, cos still have another dinner to rush to, but had da3 bao1 some chicken wings to eat on the way to our next station, but it is super unglam lah. Cannot imagine the pic of 3 quite formaly dressed girls running in the Pasir ris park and holding a chiken wing each!!! LOL!!! This is super funny lor!!! hahahaha!!! XDDD

Took cap down to our next event--- Brandon's Bday party @ Pines which is somewhere in the north bah. The taxi driver was just $^&^*##$@, 3 of us were trying our best to control ourselves in order to not spoil our day because of such an disgusting person. Anyway, the party was dame fun, haha!! We were quite conservative at first, cos everyone wear so nicely, so must behave ourselves lor, but we got high through the party, then started to do all those crazy acts and poses, and took pics with each other!!! haha!!!

I am back to home, the west just now!! haha!! Wad a wonderful day it is!!! =))

I have took like 100 plus photos today, shall upload all of them on my facebook!! =)))

Jolin ROCKS!!!!!

2009-03-25T21:22:00.005+08:00

My dearest Jolin is going to release her new album this fri, 27th March 2009!!! Wowwww!!!=DDDD

Share this MV here, she is really dame imba!!!!! (on the right handside)

The lyrics of this song is quite interesting leh!!! haha!! XDD

大丈夫
Jolin + Nick

我真的搞不太懂你怎麼會選擇寂寞
要的通通都有就少了那一個男朋友
你還要ㄍ一ㄥ多久
你到底挑什麼

聽比說得多不怕我囉唆
知道我難過陪著我沉默
手機桌布只有我
很多甜蜜小動作
自己吃飯沒胃口
刷卡之前先問我

喜歡我朋友也會愛我的狗
懂環保愛地球保護我像英雄
總是大方介紹我什麼節日都記得
陪我減肥吃蘋果幫我買口紅

i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
誠實的嘴　可靠的肩　溫柔的眼
i don't want a boyfriend
real man　real man　real man　real man

何時出現何時出現何時出現何時出現

會玩會工作
會瘋會生活
會下廚會運動
會愛會作夢
又像男孩又成熟
對我大方自己摳
教我絕招打電動
什麼都有我

i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
誠實的嘴　可靠的肩　溫柔的眼
i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
real man　real man　real man　real man

可會出現可會出現可會出現可會出現

我現在有一點通　該怎麼解決你寂寞
你說了兩三分鐘　我願意花兩三年去做
既然你ㄍ一ㄥ很久
要不要等等我

大丈夫耍酷耍溫柔　肩膀什麼都扛得動
我嘴唇輕輕動一動　就知道我在想什麼
just show me one real man
十項全男　real man

i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
誠實的嘴　可靠的肩　溫柔的眼
i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
real man　real man　real man　real man

i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
誠實的嘴　可靠的肩　溫柔的眼
i don't want a boyfriend
i need a real man
real man　real man　real man　real man

Emmm~~~~

2009-03-25T20:55:00.003+08:00

Got back 2 papers today~~~~

Math was ok, but can be better lah. Then CLL~~~ Ai~~~ If I get half of tt 20 marks i did not do, my result will be quite nice. I must say 20 marks can make a lot of difference~~~

Dun want to care abt the results thingy lah!!! Had my Taekwondo 2nd trainning today!!! haha!!! Was practicing the pattern the coach taught last lesson, cannot imagine I am going for grading next sun!!! Wowww!!! I noe all the steps liao, but is just tt I am not sure I can do it well or not!!! Anyway, it is just the basic level, not tt hard to master it lah!!! hahahaha!!! I will be a yellow belt soooooon!!! muhahahaha!!!XDDDD

It is finally over~~~~

2009-03-24T22:52:00.003+08:00

Yayyy!!! Block test is finally over!!! Maybe because of the one week holiday, it gave me a feeling tt it takes forever to end~~~~

Had BOTH bio and chem today~~~ Bio was comparatively ok, but chem, it just made me wanna take MC half way through the paper. This is going to be the first time tt my bio grade is higher then tt of my chem~~~~ Ahhhhh~~~~ Dun want to think abt it liao, it is over anyway!!! Also dun want to think abt the contract tt made me sooooo stress for the block test, God will decide what is best for me!!! =)

Well, there are a lot hwks tt i owed b4 the block test, have to face them now~~~ =( Btw, there will be Bio Skill A this fri, i think i will mug for tt first lah, it is the only chance and it has the double weightage~~~~ haix~~~

Ok, not tt bad lah, at least i still have sth to look forward to this Sat!!! Haha!! Got sooooo many events on sat!!! hahahaha!!! There will be CLL barbecue, STJ (maybe) and also Brandon's birthday party!!! I think I will be very busy of rushing to one place from another!!! Hahaha!!! Nothing will be more enjoyable than busy with playing!!!! Muhahahaha!!!!

I WANT TO SCREAM~~~~

2009-03-11T17:17:00.004+08:00

ROAR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Basically, I screwed up my GP & CLL today!!!=(((((

GP was freaking difficult lah, I stared at the compo paper for like 10 mins, still dun noe wad I should write, in the end I had no choice but to choose the mass media question which was considered as a dangerous topic to tackle with. Ok, nvm! The compre was a killer, I totally dun understand wad the writer was crapping abt, wad people like to make love in a secret place??? Pornography and obscenity??? It was totally CRAP CRAP CRAP~~~~~~~~AHHHH~~~~~~~~

Ok, later on the CLL was totally HILARIOUS!!! I finished the paper half an hour earlier, I felt very satisfied after finish writing 11 pices of the gao3 zhi3 which had abt 660 words each.I was wondering how come my fellow CLL friends got soooo many things to write ah, while checking my answers agian and again. When the teacher asked as to pass our scrips from the back to the front, I was thinking why Yang Lu's scrip soooo thick ah (cos she was sitting behind me)? Got soooo many things to write meh?

At 4 plus, the sch was very quiet, Zhou Jing, Yang Lu and me were talking abt the test while making our ways to the bus stop. Yang Lu was saying tt she cannot finish the paper, got soooo many things to write, then we found out tt she did not see the instruction which says,"2 choose 1", so she got do an extra question of 20 marks. 3 of us laughed very loudly on the stair case of A block. We countinue laughing until we walked to the gate. Yang Lu took out her paper and looking at the instruction agian, both me and zhou jing laugh at her madly. Then she changed the topic to the question below and asked me how to do it, I was saying tt I chose to do the first one. Zhou jing was shouting at me, MUST DO BOTH while pointing to the instruction on the paper, which says "Both must be done" 3 of us laughed more vigorously. Zhou jing was referring to two of us using a very disappointed tone, "U two are really 'imba' ah!!" LOL~~~~

Oh, my tianzzzz, I felt like laughing instead of crying over the 20 marks out of 120 tt I straight away lost in my JC2 Block Test 1!!! Wad the hell!!! I think lin lao shi will surely use me and yang lu as an "example" or may be a comparison of not reading the instruction, in a bad way and a even worse way, and largely advertised to the whole CLL cohort!!! Ahhhh~~~~

Prepared to be suaned by lin lao shi~~~~TOT

100 days have passed~~~

2009-03-08T20:52:00.003+08:00

100 days are long or short, everyone have different answers at different time......

No matter how many times u cried, the pity in ur heart still cannot be released. Maybe tt is why it is called pity bah~~~

I dun have a full memory of my childhood, but ever since the part I can remember, there is full of love, care and kindness of my grandpa, who appeared in my compo soooo many times. But, he have being travelling for 100 days alr. He did not wait for me to grow up, did not wait to see what I am going to be, did not wait for me to take care of him......

He came to my dream last night, and he hugged me. Though it is impossible, I still hope tt I can really hug him one last time, before carrying on my life without such an important person......

悲,莫过于子欲养而亲不在!

May God's blessing be with you, always......

This week~~~

2009-03-06T20:57:00.002+08:00

Was very stressed for the coming block tests, the teachers threatened us with the difficulty of the paper, but i still cannot find time to revise. Ahhh~~~~ GG!! =(((

Joined taekwondo this wed, it was very de cool!! Wow!!! I like the clothes, it looked very de professional!! LOL!!1 Learnt some basic pattern from the coach, actually it was not tt easy to co-ordinate, cos it should be the same hand and same leg together!!! LOL!!! XDDD

Got back my GSC result today, I was really very nervous this afternoon. Me and my CLL gang were waiting outside the LEP room at 2pm this afternoon. Though it was just one H1 paper, all of us seemed very scared abt it. Standing on the corridor, we could see all the seniors walking to the hall. Cannot imagine how nervous we would be when we get our result next year...... Ahhhh~~~~

Ok, enough, shall start studying for my block tests~~~~

Sense of maturation

2009-03-01T19:00:00.002+08:00

Dun noe y, the quizzes on mental age tt I took online recently all showed tt I am very mature, or maybe over mature than wad I should be, the results were all like more than twice of my actual age……

Maybe, sth is really changed in me bah~~~~

I started to hate the noise around our CT bench at break time, I nv felt tt way b4. This forced me to put on my earpiece and adjust the vol of the music until I cannot hear anything outside. Though I noe it is bad for my hearings and I dun even dare to try it last time, now, I am sort of addict to the loud music, it really helps me to concentrate on my work.

Also started to miss my family quite often. It became a habit of mine to call back home every week, especially when there were some festivals. Something happened last year made me more appreciate ppl around me. I cannot predict anything and I cannot not change anything. The pity cannot be avoided, but it can be reduced……

The “soap opera” on TV is not attractive to me any more, though I used to crazy abt it. Just feel tt the Cinderella type of fairy tales are quite crap. I think I can only accept the cartoon form bah~~~

All those above sounds a bit pessimistic, but actually I am not. I am still the optimistic and retarded me, is just tt I now have wisdom to guide me, what is my priority, wad I should do and wad I should not do! No need to think whether it is worth or not afterwards, cos this is wad should be done b4 tt. Never regret anything, just carry on with all those good or bad experiences! =)

I won’t avoid or escape from things tt I should face, cos like tt I will never noe I am ok or not. I won’t just assume or shout out I am ok, cos like tt I will always question or maybe confuse myself. It is only when I can face it normally, like nothing has happened, then I can announce it to myself proudly, I am ok!

I will always look forward to my wonderful future, but I will never idealize it anymore!!!=)))

Share a song called mei3 li4 xin1 qin2. I will always see things with my beautiful mood!!! =)))

美丽心情
本多ru ru

多雨的冬季总算过去
天空微露淡蓝的晴
我在早春清新的阳光里
看着当时写的日记

原来爱曾给我美丽心情
像一面深遂的风景
那深爱过他却受伤的心
丰富了人生的记忆

只有曾天真给过的心
才了解等待中的甜蜜
也只有被辜负而长夜流过泪的心
才能明白这也是种运气
让他永远记得曾经有一个人
给过完完整整的爱情

那曾经爱着他的心情
有一股傻傻的勇气
那深爱过他却受伤的心
丰富了人生的记忆

只有曾天真给过的心
才了解等待中的甜蜜
也只有被辜负而长夜流过泪的心
才能明白这也是种运气
让他永远记得曾经有一个人
给过完完整整的爱情

只有曾天真给过的心
才了解等待中的甜蜜
也只有被辜负而长夜流过泪的心
才能明白这也是种运气
当我安安心心地走在明天里
有不后悔美丽的心情

POP~~~

2009-02-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Stayed back today for the POP!!!! Glad tt our juniors were as high as us!!!=))))

Me and Mutton were very high there, running around the central plazza with our juniors and shouting out the lyrics of the songs!!! haha!! XDDD I felt really happy of being mad with my lovely 72 juniors!!!! =DDDD 72 ROCKS!!!!

Apollo won the fac dance competition this year~~~ They were really high and cheerful. Ares was very good also, the fac dance was innovative and the aresians express it quite nicely and neatly. I want to say that no matter wad the result is, we alr done ourselves proud of mastering the steps and everything, it was really a great achievement. Though it sounds old, it is really true!!! Claps for all the wonderful J1 Aresians and the fac comm ppl!!! Cheer up!!! We won the war games anyway!!! =DDDD

Ares Rocks, 72 ROCKS!!!! <33333

Abt my new house~~~=)))

2009-02-24T15:13:00.003+08:00

The internet conection have not transfered to my new house yet, so curently I still dun have my internet and homeline. I am using my mum's mobile broadband to access the internet now, it is really slow~~~~ah~~~ shouldn't complain sooo much, at least it is better than nothing!! =))

Well, my new house here is quite nice lah, emm the environment is good and more importantly it only takes me 15 mins to sch when there is no traffic jam. But tt does not mean I won't late for sch anymore. I almost late this morning lor, the jam was dame heavy and I missed 2 buses because there was sooo many ppl!!! Ok, the moral of the story is, die die must leave my house b4 6:30 in the morning!!!

Still need to sort out my room, ahhhh~~~~ why i got soooo many things ah?!!!!

886 Tampines~~~~

2009-02-19T18:52:00.002+08:00

I am going to move my house tml~~~

After staying in Tampines for almost 3 years, I am finally going to move......

A lot of memories of mine can be found in this town which I am most familiar with, compare to other parts of singapore~~~

Took the bus back this afternoon, I could actually take to the bus stop downstaris my house, but I did not do tt. I took the bus to Eunos interchange and then changed to the MRT, just for the sake of walking from the MRT to my house, the last time~~~

My house is not far from the MRT, usually I take 5 mins to reach home, but this afternoon, I took far more than tt. A lot of things happened on tt road came to my mind, a lot of ppl had walked with me on tt road, my mum, my grandparents, LiuXi, Zoe, YangLu, ZhouJing, Joyce, YiZi, PuHan...... I walked pass the bench which my grandparents used to rest on it, I walked pass the church where I first noe God, I walked pass the cross road where I had a car accident......

Suddenly have the feeling of staying, but, everything is packed into boxes and my house is now in a mess~~~

I will definately come back, this some town is like my hometown in Singapore. Anyway, Tampines is really a very good town to live in, if my sch is not soooo far away, I will never move away from it. Next time, when I am buying my own house, I may come back to Tampines again!!! =)))

I <3 Tampines!!!! =DDDD

cedar carnival! <3333

2009-02-14T15:33:00.018+08:00

Went back to my sec sch for valentines' day!!! Haha!!! It was really very fun!!! I am sooooo proud of Cedar!!! =DDD

I think my little cedar juniors spent a lot of time planning the whole event, it was very successful indeed!!! haha!! =))

There are a lot of fun staff all over the sch!!!

Can play games in the classrooms;

Can get ur personal styling in some other classrooms as well;

Got this big pool at the basketbakall court also!!

Some other games here!!

This is the highlight of the carnival!!! The teacher will be sit upon the pool, then students can use the balls to hit the button, if the ball hits it, the teacher will fall into the pool!!! wahahahaha!!!

The one giving out instructions was my math teacher last time.

Poor teachers, waiting for the hit of the students! hahahaha~~~

This was my form teacher and her baby~~~ soooo cute!!!XDDD

Me and Zoe went to leave a hand mark in cedar~~
she chose the pink one and i chose the yellow one!! =))

These are our hand marks!!! =DDD

And we got these 2 hand shape bollons!! hehe!! =))

The sch was very crowded, and there were a lot of stores set up by the students

Found this beside one of the store, she was my chem teacher last time!!! haha!!

This was found in the carpark~~

Even the drinks were soooo cute, got a pink ribbon on it!!! <333

I bought a super cute fan~~~haha!!! XDDD

I just realized tt me and Zoe's shoes were the same, just tt hers was black and mine was white!!! hahahaha!!! ><

update~~~

2009-02-13T21:36:00.002+08:00

Long time nv update liao~~~ haha!!! I am getting more and more lazy~~~ haha!!! >,<

A big happy V day to everyone!=))) I am going back to my sec sch tml!!! haha!!! sooo excited!!! XDDD

Fridays are always terrible for me, have lessons from the morning all the way to 6:30 in the evening with only 2 half-an-hour break in between.After a few weeks of moderation, I almost get used to be extremely tired and I also tried out how to preserve my energy for the long day!keke!! =D

Another good news is tt my PR application is aproved!!!haha!!! I can get my IC next wed liao!!! WOWO!!! haha!!! =DDD

I am not emo......

2009-02-01T21:41:00.005+08:00

我知道你很难过
蔡依林

爱一个人需要缘份
你何苦让自己越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真
去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等

爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心疼
没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己面对伤痕

我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤的比较久

爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤的比较久

My life was filled with mugging......

Really not tt free to blog every little thing of my life, actually, there is not tt much things for me to blog abt bah~~~

Anyway, share this song here. It is quite old alr but it suddenly came to my mind when I was stoning......

It describs a friend persuade another friend who was hurt in a relationship. Yup~~~ Actually a very close friend of mine got sing this song to me under another circumstance, I was quite touched.....and the lyrics is really quite philosophic lor......

River Hong Bao

2009-01-30T21:40:00.009+08:00

Was emceeing last night's river hong bao with yang lu and Melissa. It was not bad, I suppose!!! haha!!! XDDD

We left sch at abt 12, I felt a bit guilty of skipping chem and GP tutoria lah......

Anyway, we reached Marina Bay Floating Platform at abt 2pm, and started to rehears immediately. The place was not open to public at tt time, so only the performers could enter......

This was the stage~~~

The stage was just opposite the cai2 sheng2 ye2~~~

This was some random lights there, it was prettier at night lor~~~

I got do some homework b4 tt lor, here are my cue cards~~~=)))

Got this piece of paper as souvenir~~~=DDD

Started to make up after dinner, we were in a rush, cos we needed to change the emcee script on the spot as the guest of honor would leave half way through the performance. The stage crews were very nice, they opened one of the resting room of the superstars for us to do our hairstyles. haha!!! XDDD I was still writing my script while the teacher was doing the hairstyle for me. I only managed to finish my make up 1 min b4 the show~~~~XDDD

Me and Melissa~~~=)

Here are some photos of the performances~~~~

This was a great experience for me lah, was quite happy tt a lot ppl were standing there watching the performances~~~ haha!!! XDDD

The show ended at abt 9:30, went out to eat after tt, then reached home at abt 11:30. After packing and bathing it was alr 1 plus liao, ahhh~~~ still got sch the next day~~~ TOT

Tt was y this morning, my upper and lower eye lid had a very vigrous fight during the GP tutoria. The rest of today was relied on coffee~~~~>,<

Btw, had my first H3 lesson today. It was really very late. It ended at 6:30, when I reached home was alr 8 plus liao. Was very hungry, so I had a very heavy dinner, but started to regret immediately after tt~~~~ sooooo late alr, cannot eat sooo much lah!!! RAWR~~~~~

I decided to have my dinner around sch with mutton next time~~~~ -__-!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2009-01-26T22:30:00.003+08:00

It is the year of Ox now~~~ haha!!!

Read from the newspaper tt, in this year, the Horses will be fine in everything but must remember tt 江山美人不可兼得~~~~ LOL!!!

Ok, nvm, I will do well for my As de~~~ hehehehe!!! XDDD

Well, yesterday was talking to my family online using webcam, haha!!! Nice to see all my relatives!! I kind of miss home again, the poem "每逢佳节倍思亲" is sooo true lor~~~~ this was the third Chinese new year tt I spent overseas, hopefully I can spend my chinese new year at home next year!!! =)))

Was watching the Chinese new year celebration on CCTV4 last night, I was very touched by some of the performances, in fact I cried a few times when I was watching the programme. Because of the earthquake, this year's programme included a lot of elements of sze chuan. The sze chuan dialect was used quite often in the performances. May be to others, it was just like some weird languages tt could not be understand, but for me it was the nicest of all!!! =))) Everything will be better in the new year!!!=)))

Went to watch red cliff 2 with my mum this afternoon!! It was really a nice movie, though it was like totally different from the history. haha!!! I admired the loyalty and responsibility of the characters in the movie, but it was a bit not true lah~~~ hehe!! Nvm, it was indeed a good movie to watch!!! =DDD

INTERNET,TV,HOME LINE BACK BACK BACK~~~

2009-01-23T21:43:00.017+08:00

I got my internet back~~~~hahahaha~~~~~

Well i shall summerize this week here!!! Emmm, math lecture test on mon was just awesome, I am mentally prepared to wadever marks tt i am going to get...... Generally the whole week was busy with my bio tut, rushed out the bacteria tut on mon, then the virus tut on wed, I am still not very sure some of the concepts, so I refered to the notes for almost all the questions~~~~need to buck up on tt!! =)

On thur, me and yang lu went to ccab to meet the teacher in charge of the 'river hong bao'after school. Had our 1st practice there with another little girl, haha!! We are going to emcee the programme on next thur (29th Jan) night~~ hehe!!! Quite excited abt it lah!! haha!! This year it will be held at the marina bay floating platform, the design of the stage is not bad, and there will be fireworks also!!! haha!!! =DDD

Had our CNY celebration in sch today~~~very happy tt a lot of seniors and grand seniors came back leh, they are free souls now, jealous~~ =( Anyway after tt me and yang lu went out for lunch......

Here are the photos we took today~~~

The cow was very cuteeeee~~~ =)))

The super NIU group~~~ haha ^('..')^

Zi Lian ing~~~ XDDD

We went to Plaza Sin after the celebration. Had some junk food at KFC, we PLANED to discuss abt the emcee script after tt de, but in the end......

There was this big mirror behind our seats, so half way through our discussion, this girl started to take pics. LOL!!! Some more tt was my phone!!! Errrr~~~~

Add some artificial effects to her photo!!! LOL!!!

Oops...by chance only!! LOL!!

Errr, my positon a bit uncomfortable leh, have to turn back~~~

Aiyo, she so da4 fang1 for the first time, haha!! Cut herself out for me, haha, I am touched!!! hehe!!! XPPP

Take properly lah, haha~~

Why we take from the mirror ah, sooo troublesome, just take like this lor, LOL~~

And finally, my solo, the naughty girl also nv forget to act cute at the back, LOL!! I was$&*%#( ok, get use to it!!! LOL!! hahahaha!!!

Then, happy toilet!!!! =DDDD

Tt's all, take a bow!!! keke!!! ^O^

A not bad start!!! =)))

2009-01-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

The first week is over~~~~

I must say it was a not bad start!!!=))) Though there is a whole list of hwk to be done and a test to study for over the weekend, so far, I am coping well with all the new topics.Claps!!!! =DDD

Actually I felt the stress of being a graduating student in this first week, unlike last year the first few weeks, in fact the first few months, which was really very slacking,this year, everything start in our normal pace, there is no time for me to take a nap or stone a while. Bio preview test and GP essay asignment in the first week, math lecture test and some other assignment in the coming second week......Yar, all these motivated, actually is forced me to study study and study! But it is not a bad thing, at least I am busy with sth!!! =)))

I will try to continue, in fact is I must continue studying hard to secure my H3 CLL!! I mmmmuuuuusssstttt do well in the Block Test 1 this term!!!

Jia youzzzz!!! Fighting!!!! =)))

First day of sch~~~

2009-01-12T21:04:00.008+08:00

Today is the first day of my JC2 sch life, still chionging hwk with the rest of my classmates at CT bentch early in the morning……

The sch was half empty, and I totally dun have the feeling of being a senior lor~~~ nvm, this will change when the juniors come!!! =DDDD

Well the biggest change of the sch was the cateen, all vandors were changed, the food appeared more hygiene but it was super exxxxx~~~~5555~~~~~ TOT~~~~

Generally was quite happy today lah!! Hehe!! Spotted my article which I wrote long time ago abt the Ares Knight on Hua2 Xu4. Though I wrote like a full A4 size paper, only half of the words were published there and another half of the page was taken up by a not very exciting pic~~~ haha!! LOL!!!

Anyway, chen2 bo2 shi4 asked me and yang lu to join the chun1 dao4 he2 pan4 celebration as emcees, wow!!! Haha!!! Heard tt it was a quite big event in Singapore, haha, it would be a great experience for both of us bah!!! =))))

Btw, when I was shopping for my diary at tampines mall this afternoon, a cedar junior came to talk to me. She was asking me whether I am xiao chun?? Wow!! I was shocked when she asked me tt! From the colour of her name tack I could tell tt she is only sec 3 this year, tt means when I was sec4 tt time, she was only sec1. Wow, still can remember me, haha!!! Surprisingly, I am so famous!!!hahahahaha!!! LOL!!! XPPPPP

Bought a new diary which will accompany me for the year 2009!!! <333 Spent a few hours decorating it with some new prints, writing down the calendar, birthdays and important events just now. I think I will be able to write neatly on my super cuteeeee diary le!!! Hehe!!! =)))

Shall back to my bio holiday hwk which I need to hand in tml~~~~~

Happy New Year~~~~

2009-01-04T19:50:00.003+08:00

This gonna be my first post in 2009……

Anyway;
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│ｏ　ｏ│牛YEAR │●°
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　★☆★　　★☆★　　★☆★　　★☆★
★　新　★★　年　★★　快 ★★　樂 ★
　★☆★　　★☆★　　★☆★　 ★☆★

Hope it is not too late~~~~ =DDD

I felt like back to the 1980s these days, no TV (cos it suddenly broke when I was watching some random programme~~~), no Internet, no telephone (cos my mum wants to sign up for a new set which comes with a free laptop, so tt both of us won’t fight when both of us want to use the laptop!! LOL!!!)

Yar, very boring stay at home~~~~ The only entertainments for me at home were just cooking, sleeping and listening to the music~~~ 5555~~~~

The good thing was tt I spent a lot of time with my dearest hwks these days, but the bad thing was tt I still have a feeling tt I cannot finish them~~~~ 5555~~~ TOT

Was reading a lot ppl’s blogs just now, almost all their first post of 2009/last post of 2008 was abt their new year wishes. Nice to see tt ppl are looking forward to the year 2009!!! =)))

Emmm, I shall post my New Year wishes now;

1) Study comes first in the year 2009, A level is not tt easy~~~ PW and GSC were alr done, but 1 more new subject, tt is my H3 CLL!!! It is not tt easy but I will jia you de!!! =)))
2) I want to join taekwondo~~~ haha!!! Though the trainings are tiring, it is really a good form of abreaction!!! Haha!! LOL!!!
3) I want to spend more time with my family, especially my mum and my grandma~~~ it is hard to get over it at this age bah~~~
4) I will continue gone mad with my gang!!! Haha!! Very scared tt if all of them become very mugger then no one laugh with me liao, but seems like the possibility for tt was quite low~~~ LOL!!
5) To forget sth~~~~ 1 year enough le bah~~~

I shall stop here but I believe tt through out the year there will be a lot more to add on bah!!! =)))

One of my friends recommends a song to me which I find quite nice, shall share it here today!!! It is called 612星球, from SHE. Ppl like this song for different reasons but the lamest reason I have heard was tt the person was born on 12th June…… -_-‘’’

612星球
SHE

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麼人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞 Oh--

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那麼多
我会幸福吗在什麼时候 Oh—

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

7 months after the 5.12 earthquake~~~

2008-12-30T19:17:00.002+08:00

Well, this post gonna flooded by all those pics u cannot even imagine......

On the 12th Dec 2008, 7 months after 5.12 earthquake, I started my one-day tour in my hometown--- Du1 Jiang1 Yan4 ( which was seriously damaged in the earthquake)

The day when I first stepped in my hometown, I was in a car. I alr told myself to be mentally prepared when I was at the high way exit where there was a lot of scrap cars, or i could just call them scrap iron. At least 90% were caused by the earthquake bah~~~~

The city was not as crowded as last time, a lot of buildings were abandoned there like ghost houses~~~~

I was walking through out my tour. It was still a bit scary when walking pass all those dangerous buildings, cos there was still aftershock every now and then......

This was a very famous hot-pot shop in Du Jiang Yan~~~

Reconstruction of the road......

The sign appears every where in the city......

Repairing of the damaged building~~~

No shops can still run their business in this street.....

The balcony was gone!!!!

Dusts wait to be cleaned~~~~

This was the street a lot ppl dun dare to walk pass it~~~

Silence~~~~

Shops.....

The whole block was gone!!!!

Still can see sofa hanging there~~~

If u realise the second floor was gone!!!!

The wars from the 3rd floor onwards were gone!!!!

This was a very typical ruins of the earthquake, even the the minister of USA came and visti this place. It was a disco last time~~~

It was ruins a few months ago, but now, grass started to grow to cover it~~~

I think this was some paper made burnt by the relatives of the victims bah~~~

There used to be a market~~~

Ppl lost their shops soon set up their business in this kind of tents......

this was where I used to live when I was in kindergarden~~~~

The room I used to practice my piano there~~~

This was another typical artwork of the earthquake, the shop became a parallelogram after tt ~~~

Du Jiang Yan is famous for its natural attractions, can still find some positive sites lah!!

This was a dush bin, so artistic right!!! =))

This was considered as the city centre le bah~~

Describtion of Du Jiang Yan~~~ The monument was sooo huge tt I was just a tiny piece compare to it!!! LOL!! haha!!XDD

Well, all those ppl who lost their housed in the earthquake, they got some temporary house to live in. This was one of them~~~

Was quite touched by the optimism of the ppl there. No matter wad happened, we should always have the courage to continue living!!! =)))

Living in this kind of temporary house, ppl still nv forget to plant some green plants!!! =))

The little girl was studying there~~~ Yes, Jiayou, dun give up so easily!!=DD

It gonna be chinese new year soon, sooo can see sausages!!! =)))

Veges~~~

Some entertainment--- mah jong

Ppl really utilize every piece of land, see they even growed veges by themselves!!! =DD

This was the kitchen which I think 2 families shared one. According to one of my mum's friend who lived there, she said tt, the neighours there were all very nice, everytime after they cook sth, they will share the food!!! =DDD

The laundry~~~

For the elderly~~

For teens~~~

For the kids~~~~

Volunteers playing chess with the children~~~

Children's art works~~~

Results~~~

Books donated by the outside~~~

The room was just sooo warm and nice!!! =DDD

There were a lot of this kind of mini supermarkets~~~

Notice board~~~

The fire protection station~~

Police station~~~

Hospital~~~

School/events centre~~

Though every thing must restart, ppl was really very strong. I eye witnessed a marriage in tt temparory home. Everything was very simple~~~

But very sweet~~~ <333

Very touched~~~ TOT

This was the first marriage in this kind of temporary home and also the new couple decided to use the money they saved to buy 100 pices electric blankets to give to the elderly living in tt temporary home, so a lot of journalists came to report this news!!! Wowwww~~~

Even though there were sooooo many professional camaras, I still managed to get this sole scene!! haha!!! This was taken b4 the ceremony when the groom was preparing beside the stage!! haha!!
Why I got this privilege leh? Of course it was not because I am experienced or wad, haha, it was because the groom was my uncle!!! =))) Quite handsome right!! haha!! Actually I think he looks like Andy Law!!! hehe!!! ^o^

Their bridal chamber was simple and small, but it was really special!!! <333

Tt is all I saw in my home town......

Quite sad tt a lot of things could not be found, but at the same time, very touched tt a lot of things being found!

Reconstuction doesn't only take 1 or 2 days, it will be a long process and it will be a hard process! But we all must be strong, cos our future will definately better......

Dedicate this song called Love and Hope, from JJ Lim Jun Jie, to all the ppl who were affected in the earthquake. Yeah, be strong, there will always be love and hope!! =)))

爱与希望
林俊杰

大地被摇晃著
天空突然黑了

我的心也被震碎了

下一秒瓦解了
泪堆积成了河

但明天是好的
我们要坚定著

爱让我们不放弃活著

还要继续和大自然拔河

当爱与希望
投射炙热的太阳

昨日泪光
会随时间都蒸发

别轻易放弃
明天要许更多愿望

装满了勇气就更有力量

当爱与希望
倒映暖暖的月亮

再回头望
又是筑好的家乡

我知道未来
还有好多路要闯

我打开了窗看见了晴朗

1 month liao~~~

2008-12-29T00:27:00.004+08:00

1 month alr~~~

Wad happened exactly one month ago was still clearly replayed in my head~~~

How to just let go the love tt u alr have it for 18 yrs~~~

You saw ur loved one suffering from the disease but acutually nothing u can do to help him~~~

You saw him become thiner and thiner, at last, just left the skins and the bones~~~

He stopped breathing in front of u, u wanted him to stay but at the same time, did not want him to suffer soooo much~~~

U could feel the warm hand become cool, then even cooler~~~

Ur heart was sooo painful, ur tears just could not help droping out, but u must smile, cos he loved to see ur smile~~~

Pray hard for ur peace~~~

My love will be with u always and missing u always~~~

在天堂也要常常笑噢! :)

Christmas day~~~

2008-12-25T23:35:00.006+08:00

Oooo, Merry Christmas!!! =)))
Today is such an joyful and beautiful Christmas!!! <333

Went to orchard with my friend in the afternoon, wowww, soooo nice. This year's theme was related to candy, hehe, all the decorations were sooooo kawaii!!!! ^o^

Here are the pics!!!

I like this kind of bling bling feeling~~~ haha

Big heart <333

Huge lollipop~~~~

Another one, I want a real one!!!!

The happy 5 member family and me (the maid?!!!)

Ah~~~~

Mutton's butt, errr, sooo smelly!!! XPPP

Me and my friend!!! =)))

Yes, me, gentle and humble!!! haha!!! LOL!!

fruitsssss~~~

Yes!! Chiong for next year!!! =DDD

Wow, the cars were just behind leh~~~hehe!!! XDDD

Went to watch The Bedtime Stories with deer and her friends!! haha!! Tt was fantastic!! I want to live in the fairy tales also!!!!=))))

It was even prettier at night!!!! <333

My own sweet moments~~~~

hearts every where!!! <3333

Merry Christmas!!!=DDD

2008-12-24T22:56:00.005+08:00

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Merry Christmas, my dear readers!!! =DDD

Just came back from Brandon's house. Thanks my dear xiao di Brandon for the wonderful christmas eve dinner, it was really yummy!!! =))))

Going to church later at 12;00am!!! Haha!! Sooooo excited!!! Will pray for u all, my dear friends!!!=)))

Merry Christmas and happy new year!!!! <333333

OOO, this was taken in the church, after the midnight section!!! =))

29.11.2008

2008-12-21T09:58:00.006+08:00

刚刚从教堂回来, 隔了这么久没有去, 很多事情都改变了. 总算是了了一个心愿, 帮我想要祝福的人祈祷......

现在家里很安静, 只剩我一个人, 我又开始想念爷爷了......

2008年11月29日, 6点零6分, 那一幕还在我的脑海里回放. 在全家人的陪同下, 爷爷只有呼气没有吸气的呼吸停止了. 病房虽然不大, 但还是能容下我们一大家人.

我永远也记得, 婆婆忍了好几个月的眼泪在那一刻终于掉了下来, 她握住爷爷的手在他耳边, 一遍又一遍的重复着, "你放心走吧, 孙子们都安排好了, 我, 你也不用担心, 儿女们都会照顾我的, 我也会自己照顾自己, 跟朋友们一起出去玩, 你安心吧!"

婆婆爷爷虽然不算是轰轰烈烈的恋爱, 但是两个人一直很简单又很幸福. 两个人都对家庭忠心, 对朋友热心, 对工作尽心. 虽然有时争吵, 但这么多年来到哪里都是两个人一起的, 从来没有落单过.

婆婆其实是很坚强的了, 这几个月她虽然很难过, 知道爷爷的病是治不好的了, 但在爷爷面前她还是装得很乐观, 一直瞒着爷爷, 让他以为他的病只是普通的炎症. 爷爷住院后, 她更是每天都守在医院, 一步也没走开过, 就连一餐热饭都没有吃过. 每次都是要爷爷吃下后, 她才吃. 爷爷又是一个不愿麻烦别人的人, 就连生病住院, 他也给家里人打招呼, 叫家人不要给其它亲朋好友说, 他甚至连儿女都不愿支唤, 婆婆就是知道到他这一点, 想到除了她, 爷爷没有什么其它人他肯让他们帮忙, 所以才一步也不敢离开.

爷爷走后, 来看望婆婆的人络绎不绝, 我看着婆婆含着泪水, 一遍又一遍的跟别人讲爷爷为家庭所付出的种种种种, 她反而安慰来看望她的人说, 其实爷爷走了对他是一种解脱, 他真的被这病折磨了很久, 真的太痛苦了.

这点我们全家人都懂, 爷爷走的时候已经六, 七天没有吃东西了, 原来身体很健康的爷爷只剩下皮包骨了, 原本可以抱起两个孙子的爷爷已经连说话的力气都没有了......

那几天, 我和哥哥,姐姐在爷爷的灵位前守了两天两夜. 爷爷的遗像是彩色的, 照片中的爷爷很精神, 戴了一附老花眼镜, 眉头微微的皱着, 眼镜眯成一条缝, 嘴角轻轻的上扬. 爷爷一惯都是这样笑的.

前来祭拜爷爷的人很多, 他们口中的爷爷都是, 好党员, 好干部, 好大哥, 好兄弟......

夜深的时候, 我和哥哥姐姐便会坐在爷爷的灵堂前, 聊一些小时候的事. 我们三个都是爷爷亲手带大的. 记得小时候, 爷爷算是家中的白脸人, 而婆婆是黑脸人, 因为婆婆总是不让我们吃外面的零食, 说是不卫生, 对身体不好, 而爷爷总是带我们出去玩, 然后偷偷买一些饮料或是冰棒给我们吃, 而且还叮嘱我们不要给婆婆讲. 然而有时我们不小心说漏嘴或是吃坏了肚子, 婆婆便什么都知道了, 于是就开始责怪爷爷, 但爷爷也只是笑笑, 而后又给我们买喜欢吃的东西, 所以我们都特别喜欢爷爷. 就连吃味道都一样的面, 都觉得爷爷碗里的格外好吃, 每次爷爷都会端着碗等我们在他碗里挑完了再吃.

爷爷会讲好多好多的故事, 小时候睡觉前都要钻到被窝里听爷爷讲故事才能入睡. 爷爷讲的白蛇传, 封神演义, 西游记..... 我们都还记得.

爷爷还会做一手好菜, 读书的时候要周末才能回家, 每到星期五都会打电话跟爷爷点菜, 绍子鱿鱼, 锅巴肉片, 回锅肉, 水煮肉片, 凉拌鸡, 脆皮鱼......都是爷爷的拿手好菜!

后来, 我们都到外地读书了, 回家的次数也越来越少了. 但是这次我们都到齐了, 已经有5年没有这样子三个人聚在一起了. 姐姐在德国留学, 这次专门请假回来, 她买回来的一条小电热毯爷爷一直抱着, 不准别人拿开, 她11月21号回来的时候爷爷还能说话, 当我24号从新加坡回去的时候, 爷爷就基本不能说了, 只能点头摇头, 但是爷爷看到我就笑了, 听婆婆说爷爷已经有好几个月没有笑过了. 哥哥在飞行学院, 刚刚分到分院, 准备上飞机了, 不太敢请假, 爷爷虽然不说, 但还是想见哥哥一面. 哥哥27号回来的时候爷爷已经不太清醒了, 眼睛也看得不太清楚了......

爷爷走的时候全家人都在他的周围, 他走得很安详, 但在我们三个心中还是觉得很遗憾, 毕竟爷爷辛苦了一辈子, 还没有享受到孙子辈的福就走了......

爷爷出殡的那一天, 我们三个都约定, 爷爷没有享到的那份就留给婆婆一起享吧!

分享一首我现在听到便会哭的歌. 我觉得很像是写婆婆的心情, 婆婆的手机背景还是她和爷爷金婚时照得婚纱照, 虽然她很乐观, 但心里一定会很难过吧, 毕竟这么多年的感情, 一直没有分开过, 现在突然没有了......

一个人
蔡依林

从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别

一个人到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人我重新适应一切不方便
两个人不一定就成全一个世界
一个人关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线过去那些情节更明显

...更明显...

Food recommendation~~~

2008-12-19T20:34:00.013+08:00

Si Chuan Food Recommendation~~~~~<3333

Today still not in the mood to talk abt all those serious things, shall introduce some delicious Si Chuan Food!!! ^0^

Here is a very funny video showing the culture of Cheng Du!!! It was really funny!! haha!! And it really shows the specialities of Cheng Du!!! Must watch!!!hahahahaha!!!XDDDD

http://www.tudou.com/player/outside/player_outside.swf?iid=3572554&default_skin=http://js.tudouui.com/bin/player2/outside/Skin_outside_8.swf&autostart=false&rurl=

My friend recommended this to me, I was laughing the whole evening, I even put the original song as my blog background music!!! very de kuso right!! haha!!LOL!!!

You may not understand all lah, cos it was in my dialect..... but it was really funnly!!! hahahaha!!

Ok, I shall start my recommendations:
First of all, barbecue!!! <3333 Tbere were plenty of choices!!

My choices!!! wowwwww!!! ^O^

This is how they grill it!!!!!!

All the meat~~~~keke

I was to eager to eat liao, sooooo shaky ah!!! hahahaha!!! forgivable!!!!LOL!!

heihei!!! Spicy toufu!!!! keke!!

This was one kind of steam pot which use porridge as the base to boil other staff!!! special right!!! =))

Then the last dish to put in was this thing which looked like a nest, Then the whole pot would become very yummy porridge!!! emmmm!! =0000

This one was a very famous hot pot shop in Cheng Du. It even have shop in Singapore ooo, but it is super ex!!!!

They even teach u how to eat their fish head~~~ -_-'''

One side was the normal spicy soup, another side was their very special tomato soup~~~~ yummy yummy ^0^

This was another famous steam pot, it had different kinds of mushrooms, and the soup was seriously fantastic~~~~~=DDDD

This was sth like the roti prada, but I found it nicer than it!! keke!!

See, got soooooooo many flavours~~~ wow!!! =))) I think the pineapple one was the best!!! XDDD

This was how they make it!!!

This was the final product, it was crispier than the roti prada!!!=))))

This was some normal steam pot, whith one spicy base and one non-spicy base!!!

This was sth tt come with the hot pot. One was the cup of red and white tea, another one was the sesame oil which had the function of reduce the heat!!!

This was spring roll, dip it in the special chilly water~~wow, super nice!!! =)))

Haha!! This is the crystalline candied haw!!! Memory of my childhood!! hoho!!

See, now the further develop it, still got other fruit~~~^o^ and the paper around it is maltose paper, it was my favourite when I was young!! I used to eat the paper and throug away the sweet~~~ LOL!!!

Another kind was haw with walnut~~~~ =DDDD

This is maltose, haha!! Very sweet~~~~

This is some dry sweet potato chips, but it is much sweeter than potato chips~~~<3333

This is the baked sweet potato!!! It was very nice to eat in the winter time!!! =)))

Baked potato, also very de nice!!=DDD

This was another famous snack~~~

This is the machine tt they used to make the noodle~~~~

This was the first thing I ate when I go back, I miss it very much!!!! =)))

Ok, tt is all, but actually there were much more in Cheng Du!!! haha!!
Have u ever wondered where are all these dishes now, the answer is very simple--- in my stomach!!! hahahaha!!!!!!XDDDD

So, u noe, why I cannot lose weight in China le bah!!!! 55555~~~~ =(((((

Happy things first~~

2008-12-18T10:54:00.010+08:00

Ok, I shall start with all those happy things......

In general, I eat a lot and shop a lot!!! hehe!! ^o^
And met a lot ppl who I really long time no see!!! haha!!! <3333

Me and my cusines~~~ I nv see my sister for 5 yrs and nv see my brother for 3 yrs liao, haha!! Finally gathered together in the hospital where grandpa stayed in. Ai~~~~
Anyway, from the pic can see the gene of our family, haha, like very little hair, panda eyes etc..... haha!! LOL!!

This is my grand daughter!!! haha!! I am not kidding, it is true, she called me 姑婆, haha!! I felt tt i am very OLD!!!!! 5555~~~~ XCCCCC

These are some friends who grow up with me, hehe!! The girl beside me was burried under the ruins when the earthquake happened, she stayed in hospital for very long, but she became much more mature after tt, the earthquake might be a good thing sometimes!!! =))))

Ohh, these are my roomates last time in sec sch!!! haha!! very happy tt we can gathered again!!!=)))
From left to right are,
Yi Fei ( came back from America, very de ahmo leh!! hehe!!)
Lulu ( going to study in singapore, hehe!! Now stay in my house!! XDD)
Wang Yan ( study in Cheng Du, going to Austrilia next yr, haha!!! )
Wow, four of us really like all over the world. Dun noe when we can meet again liao!! Ai~~~~

Wowwww, PANDA on my sofa!!!!

No lah, I am not rich and brave enough to raise a panda in my house lah!!! It was my doggy!!! hehe!! Cute right!!! hehe!! XDDD

The poor thing was shocked by the camara!! haha!!

When I was packing, there left an empty case, I just had an idea of putting my dog into the case and carry it to singapore, but of course it was not possible lah!!! 5555~~~~ I miss my lovely dog!!! =((((

Another cuteeee in my garden!!! <3333
Look at the camara, hei hei!!! XDDD

Ooo, zoom in!!!

I am back~~~~

2008-12-17T22:01:00.005+08:00

I am back~~~~

Well, in tt 22 days in China, I experienced a lot of things of life, generally can be described in 4 words: 悲欢离合......

A lot of things I want to blog about, happy things, sad things or the enviroment after the earthquake etc. But give me some time, seriously a lot of things happened in tt 22 days......

chunchunの爱

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处处无家处处家

This is the real starting~~~=)

闷

I need Patience...

go away pain!!!!

a little bit of digress~~~

2 years alr~~~

A poem~~~

一棵开花的树

English Translation

Before departure...

It is mean to be tough~~~

sep 2010

The meaning of travel~~~

To my dear readers~~~

It is all aftershock~~~

Happy to be busy!=)))

wake up half way...

This song came to my mind, at the middle of the night~~~

This is stupid~~~

I miss my lovely toysssss~~~

unlucuky and unglam day~~~

just like the lyrics.....

Bravo Saturdays!!!=))))

This is awesome~~~

tiring but happy and fulfield~~~

Saturdays are always wonderful!!!=)))

suddenly stop here~~~

Mothers' Day Surprise!!!XDDD

It is a sat today~~~

not in a good mood~~~

Office Camhoring

最近爱K这首歌~~~

an afternoon like this~~~

I am back!!!!

flying off tml~~~

Happy Bday Ahma!!!

HC OPEN HOUSE!!!=)))

the lady and the chocolate~~~

cheese, cheese, cheese cake~~~~=)))

Chipmunks made me miss my doggyssss~~~~~=((((

Life after As~~~

bella sera~~~=)))

Learning is much easier than teaching lor~~~

it is over!!!

In silence I grieve

starting to enjoy life after As le~~~~=)))

One last break b4 As~~~

Some thoughts~~~

My 19th, in the midst of mugging~~~

写给自己的话

update~~~

mrs foo is crazy but i like her~~~hahahaha~~~><

I love H3 make up lesson~~~

crazy crazy crazy~~~

harmoc concert~~~

Hug the nature~~~=)))

I <3 TKD!!! =)))

Random~~~

dance night

牡丹亭中人～～～a peony paviliAn

this week~~~^^

peony pavilion

update update!!!!

happy bday zhou jing!!!!

Busy life~~~

TKD FTW~~~

abt life~~~

YAYY PW~~~

Music is my pain killer~~~

Super High~~~~

Jolin ROCKS!!!!!

Emmm~~~~

It is finally over~~~~

I WANT TO SCREAM~~~~

100 days have passed~~~

This week~~~

Sense of maturation

mrs foo is crazy but i like her~hahahaha~><